09/15/2011

I did text Purple the other day, a couple hours after we talked. Nothing big, just something about sorry we didn’t get to see each other but at least we can keep in touch now. And no reply. I figure the balls in her court now right? She has my number. Unless she thinks I was just being polite, and not too interested in talking to her. Which is not the truth. Maybe I should just say hey what’s up or something. I dunno. I’ll give it a couple days. Let it sit for a bit. Seems like a good enough plan.

Otherwise, the new critters are getting settled in. Xena and Gabrielle are adorable in their cute little fuzzy-ness. Bandit is finally starting to eat and drink, and chirp up a storm. Sometimes I think he gets mad when a show goes to commercial, that’s when he chirps loud and long.

Had an odd and vaguely emotional conversation with my father the other day. It was… surreal. Also the same time I had an equally odd and vaguely emotional conversation with the BFF.

Not really sure why one day an ex of mine pops back up, then the BFF, and my father the day after. Strange. Really strange. My conversations with people are normally one a week. Besides my mother. I mean I’ll talk to people, but an actual conversation is a once a week thing. I hate people, I dislike talking to people, I’m not all that friendly. So, that means I rarely have decent conversations because I hate people, stupid people more so. I refuse to have a conversation with an idiot. Limits my talking greatly.

Trying to learn how to keep my moods under control without medication. It works, but the idea of being medicated for the rest of my life kinda sucks. I would prefer to be able to rationally deal with the effects of my moods on my own, without drugs. I heard complex B-vitamins helps. Meditation. Figuring out the triggers, and the warning signs of an episode. I’m going to do what I can. If it gets wicked bad again I’ll go see the doctor. In the mean time I’m going to just try to live with it in a healthy constructive manner.

Ugh, I’m telling myself to not text Purple. I will not. I shouldn’t. Bad idea. Don’t do it. No.

Okay, going to actually do something besides reading Xena fanfic.