Rambles.

Only 4 days until my children’s summer vacation is over… Yessssssssssss!

I think i’ve been looking forward to this since school finished in May… It has been such a long long time. Now i’m in the home stretch I’m suddenly enthusiastic about getting school uniforms, school supplies, labelling everything, packing backpacks and you’ve best believe that on Monday morning i’ll be pushing them out of the slowly moving vehicle and waving a hurried goodbye before I burn rubber out of that parking lot.

I love my children… I just think that summer vacation over here is EXCESSIVELY long. I’d happily go back to the simple 6 weeks they get in Australia. That’s plenty of time to be surrounded by your offspring on a 24/7 basis.

I’m sure some people would disagree with me but they DO arrive at a stage where the appeal of playing outside wanes and entertainment (usually costly) MUST be provided on an ongoing basis. I mean, my girls HAVE been good about not pestering (too much) but they’re still disappointed that they didn’t get to go to the water park and here there and everywhere.

I’ve started to get extremely anxious about Nursing. I’ve now not worked a shift for 18 months and I almost feel like I have lost my ability to go back. By the time everything is sorted here (with my work permits and nursing accreditation etc) I’m almost certain i’ll be so out-of-the-loop that I won’t know anything. I’m really itching to go home and just work and were it not for the issues, I probably would.

I’m missing birthdays, engagements, weddings and it’s just not fair. The more that people ask me where "we" (meaning Jimmy) wants to retire, the more I want to just scream "AUSTRALIA." It has nothing to do with not liking it here and not loving Colorado, but it really is tough to compare anything to home. I know Jimmy wants to settle either here or further South (New Mexico) and I’d be cool with that because land and houses are well priced and work is available. I just want to eventually head back to the land down under. At least I think I do… People who have moved across the world tell me that even though you pine for home, you also miss your adopted place too. Grrrrr. Damn life complications.

…but that doesn’t mean that I’m completely miserable because I’m not. I’m finally meeting people here and they’re all really nice. I like living here too. There are aspects that bug me but if I raise them here I’d start a war soooooo yanno, best to let sleeping dogs lie I think. There’s still a lot of exploring I want to do over here and I expect i’ll get the chance to do that as time goes by.

I could simply be ready for a visit. *sigh* 

Complicated feelings… pffft.  

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