05/13/2012

I live on land
and long for the sea
I note the contradiction
the duplicity I see
Its not that the land
is much different to the ocean
I just swap my bush basher
for a sweet little gaffer [Tawhiri]

LOL! Tawhiri  – this is VERY clever and exactly how I feel! LOL

My new darling man is a honey pie…

My ex – well – don’t feel sorry for him… he likes being mentally ill… and so is still not getting treatment.. and is still in a mess.. this would only be his problem if he did not try to inflict himself on others…. take today…. no… don’t worry about it…. I have no control over what he does… I just hope he doesn’t hurt anyone… especially anyone in my family… 🙁

Today was ‘Mother’s Day”  here.

I had a really awful, scary day yesterday, being insecure about my new relationship and our first ‘hiccup’ (‘moment’).

But all was well again after last night – hugs and talks and reassurance… ( I hope!!).

So ‘Mother’s Day’ was lovely – I was very spoilt  – by my sweet man – and my boys (just with love – the best present).

I went to visit my own dear mum – and what a gorgeous sweet woman she is… never ceases to amaze me – with her love for me and our other family – and her wisdom and thoughts… (and sense of humour about political issues – lol)

I have my ‘old’ job back – at TAFE – that I held – 20 years ago!!! (yes, I do feel old at that thought)  – started last week – quite terrifying really – teaching adult literacy/numeracy – still teaching 2 days a week  – same – at a ‘Community House’ and also back doing aged home care work 1 day a week as well as studying  – upgrading teaching quallies…. all a bit much… but just have to get through it all for next coupla months then I can cut right back  to two days a week…. hopefully…  it was just the way it all worked out – no work – then too much all at once – and I can’t break a contract ….. the money is sort of good – but paying a part time nanny/cleaner and for take-aways and fuel (fuel is huge because I still live 50 kms from work) sort of negates the wages, really……

But I think we doing ok….. well…. we still eating and sleeping and enjoying life…. so that’s ok in my books anyway… the rest is just ‘whinging’ lol 

byee for now – hope you all doing ok???