Summer time

Well it is here – and for a while we have sun to prove it lol.

One wonders if anything will change in life in the next while…well anything better than funerals anyway. Maybe the nun will decide to actually get back to doing wifely things, maybe someone will find this overweight, stick walking guy as interesting enough to at least play with, maybe I will get a new job paying more…maybe, maybe, maybe.

I do what I can with life but it would appear that this is not usually good enough for anything. Case in point. I recently had a back issue that affected and still affects the hips meaning that standing up and walking is a nightmare. Pain meds, currently pregabelin but I have a fair old selection to choose from, maintain the pain to a soft roar. I look like the poster boy for the traffic sign of old people!

In fact yesterday was so bad I almost took off the wedding ring, left a note and ‘disappeared’…still an option to be fair. I managed to last the day which was good but it remains a viable option. Where would I go well lets me see. Paris would be a good place to end things, the Lakes or Cornwall seem positive as well…maybe London – find the fet scene have plenty of fun and then the river is always good for the odd person or two. Scotland would be a wide open space tat could hide many secrets for a long time. Mm fet scene now that would be fun, the smell of leather and latex…people being true to themselves and all of it consensual.

Yep currently life is not mentally good, physically not good although work is ok.

Sucks – well except for OD and my chance to vent