3rd Time’s a Charm!
Weight today: 114.6 lbs.
My weight has been ranging anywhere between 110.6 to 116.9 lbs. since I last updated.
So I haven’t updated for a couple of weeks. I have since ended antibiotics for bronchitis, but I still have a cough and the sneezes as well.
I saw my psychiatrist two weeks ago Wednesday and he wanted to follow up with me from when I started taking Saphris. I stopped taking the Abilify and the Seroquel for bi-polar disorder and just started taking Saphris. I’m doing well on the new drug so we are staying on it. I’m not as manic as before by far. I see the psychiatrist next month, April 20th, I believe.
Then this past week, Wednesday, I saw my orthopedic doctor for my ankle. I have been in more pain these past few weeks leading up to this past orthopedic appointment. He has been with me since my car wreck on March 21st, 2010. He told me this past week that my pain is probably from the hardware (4 pins) and that we could try taking them out and seeing if my pain lessens. I’ve been living with pain in my right ankle since March of 2010 when I had the car wreck that injured it in the first place (you can read more of my car accident in my pages section). So it’s going on almost three years of straight pain. So the orthopedic surgeon suggested surgery at the end of March, beginning of April. He will go in and remove all the hardware. It’ll take a good 6 to 8 weeks of total recovery with me bearing weigh on it after about two weeks. I will be on crutches to start with for two to three weeks, and then get the stitches removed and then be in a big black boot for another few weeks. Hopefully this third surgery will be my last and final one. He said all the fusions look complete. I’ve been in kind of a daze with this final surgery. It’s just never ending. Not a day goes by that I don’t recall the accident on some level. Either a smell will trigger it, the pain in my foot will trigger it, or just getting into a car will trigger the memories of my car accident. Seriously, not a day goes by. Mainly it’s the pain in my foot that triggers the memories of the wreck. I’m just so tired of it. The pain, the memories…all of it. And now I will be laid up for a couple of weeks and out of work yet again for surgery….it just seriously never ends. Since my husband is in a wheelchair, I have to help him with a lot of physical things for him to exist to a day to day basis. But with me laid up and on crutches, that severely limits my ability to help him. For the past two surgeries I have counted on my husband’s Mom, Joan, to help us out. We tried to rely on my own Mom, but that was a bust and she never helped with anything to be honest with you. I don’t feel like calling her up and asking her to help out a third time seeing she has helped so many times before. So my husband is going to call his Dad and see if he can come down from South Carolina and stay with us a few weeks to help out. This time I will make sure my own mother helps out because she hasn’t done much to help at all. I just really hate relying on people.
My eating disorder habits and rituals have been pretty low key recently. I haven’t been binging and purging or just purging for the sake of it recently at all. Probably why my weight hasn’t dropped much at all as well. I still have eating disordered thoughts but I’m not really acting on them much. So I guess that’s a good thing. The bad thing is, when I’m back on crutches, I’m bound to gain weight again. I ALWAYS do. It frustrates me how fast I gain it back. We’ll see how it all goes though.