new days

my oh my, how time does fly by….

Ive been at my current job for a few months, i’m starting to make friends… kind of. i’m in an office that i actually like, and hopefully they will keep me (they’re trying to make a position for me, and hopefully by tomorrow or monday i’ll know if i will get my own desk!!)… since i’m still in training, i go to whoever has an open desk, which can get confusing when i answer the phones.

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besides work, i love my mr. bear. i can’t believe how awesome he is, and how much more i love him everyday. when he is gone when i get home from work i get mad,,, cuz it should be my time to see him.

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and in about 20 weeks, i’ll be having a little girl. ( i wish i could upload a picture from the computer and not have to go through photobucket….)

we didn’t obviously plan to have two kids within a year, but it kinda happened…. and i think subconsiously i was hoping that i would get pregnant and i did……..it probably helped that i was eating healthy and exercising so i wouldnt be a fatty momma…….but i never ended up losing that much (i did get back to my pre-prego weigth though)

i’m excited, and nervous, and scared… i hope i love this one as much as the first. who knows. we’ll see. joe isn’t quite as thrilled that it is a girl, but he’ll get over it as soon as he sees her………i hope.

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working on cleaning out the house, the garage, the yard… selling shit. tossing shit. getting the place to be livable again. We’ve put it off for far too long, and all it takes is $205 for a dumpster and hopefully we’ll have some sense of normallcy…

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ready to kill my cats and dog. i actually envisioned throwing my husband’s cat against the wall last night. i wanted to do it so badly. the fucker keeps stealing things from the counter. i left out some steamed broccoli and cauliflower that baby didn’t want to eat…. and the fucking cat TIPPED OVER THE WHOLE PAN……>FUCKING BROCCOLI!!!! i swear the fucking nobody i wanted to boot that asshole all the way across the house. i don’t know if i’m imagining this shit or what, but i am almost positive the animals are all too jealous of the baby and have started acting up to get their attention. the dog wakes up at 3am, 4am, 5am, and wants to go out. i want to get up and beat the shit out of him.  and then i feel bad because my husband wanted this dog, and now he is having too much fun with the baby to care about the dog…. i want him to go somewhere that theyll take care of him better, but i don’t want to give him up and make him feel like we’ve abandoned him…….he’s staying for now.

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that’s all i can think right now… trying to work.