rumpy lumpy love

i think i’ve been sitting in the same spot for 3 hours straight. about 20 minutes ago baby started freaking out and i think he’s trying to escape through my belly button. i havn’t noticed him being this active for a long time. kinda crazy.

since the last entry: i’ve gotten substantially bigger. i was so impressed with my 20 lb weight gain… ha. fuck that! in 3 weeks i managed to gain …. wait for it….. 7 fucking lbs! it took me 8 months to gain 20, and only 3 weeks to gain 7!?! i will say that it’s mostly water weight… since the day after i went in for my appointment, i was swollen to all hell. my feet and ankles no longer existed… they were one giant (and i mean giant) force to be reckoned with. i didn’t really think anything of it, and just went to eating a mass quantity of thanksgiving (times 3) and injested as much salt and fat as i could! … mmmm. salt. fat. mmmm. by sunday (as in last sunday the 29th) i had royally fucked my body. I was having blurry vision, headaches, slight pain in the liver area, swollen feet AND hands, and my blood pressure had risen extremely high… i run about 96/68… and have since the beginning of the pregnancy, but sunday my first reading was 148/84. and i almost started freaking out.  i calmed down, somewhat. and got a second reading 3 hours later at 128/82… still not down to what it should be. so i called the hospital, and they didn’t seem concerned, and told me to rest and take it easy. 

yeah. that’s what you tell a pregnant woman that’s freaking the fuck out?? whatever. they didn’t want me to come in, so i didn’t. i just bawled my head off on the drive home from work, and bawled myself to sleep… but that must have helped cuz i woke up in the morning and wasn’t NEARLY as bloated as i had been the day before. *so the moral is, cry out your excess water weight!*

(and the whole thing got worse when i went on mayo’s website and looked up the symptoms of preeclampsia. i had nearly all of them and the only cure for preeclampsia is delivery!!!!!!!!!!!!!! totally not ready yet!)

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have an appointment tomorrow, where i get poked in the ass for groupB strep. can’t wait. hopefully they’ll tell me how big he is, and estimate an arrival date…. they want to find out if he’s in the right position for delivery, and as of right this moment, i think he’s turned himself in every possible contortion he can think of… i can’t really tell what is up and down with him, but i know my diaphram and bladder are being simultaneously abused…. giant baby!

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thanksgiving was a complete pig-out. i went to my grandma and grandpa’s house, and got to see my prego sister, and prego "sister in law to be"… we had a picture taken with all of us, but my aunt has it… i didn’t bring my camera, cuz i don’t have any memory on it. (or with it…)

then we went to joe’s parents house, and joe ate, again. i had pie. i was stuffed from lunch. stayed a little longer than planned, and had to have my brother throw in the food for me so it would be ready by the time we got home. 

then we went to my mom’s house. it always feels so comfortable to be home. not having to put on a facade. we sat and bullshitted and ragged on each other, as always, and i ate so much i thought i might just explode. literally. i don’t think there has ever been a time in my life that i have eaten so much food! ever! by the time we left (after nearly 2 hours of sitting and NOT eating) i couldn’t even breathe. we live right next door, so our walk home was maybe 30 seconds, and i thought i would die as soon as i got in the house. i layed down, and everytime i tried to roll in any way, i would almost start hyperventillating. NEVER AGAIN. that was so fucking stupid, but i figured i was eating for two? right?… yeah. no. i really didn’t eat that much, just a lot all within a short time frame. i could probably have eaten it all if i had spaced it out throughout the entire day. instead we started at noon and stopped at 7pm.

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saturday the 28th was joe’s band’s show in altura. which is about an hour (hour 20) minute drive from my house. me and laura and lea went, and everyone else worked…. they didn’t play until 10pm. and we got there at 3:45pm…….. and proceeded to sit around and wait. literally.  a couple of the bands were good. i would say three of the 8 eight were decent. the other ones were screamy, death metal shit. (which is basically what joe’s band is too)…. the first band reminded me of panic, with the singer from the academy is… very catchy pop/rock. next band i liked was Polis… from Mankato, they played slow tunes, guitar with a bow, decent singing and catchy beats. last band was from winona, don’t know their name, but they sounded kind of like my chemical romance/3 doors down… the southern rock sound. very decent.

joe’s band desperately needs a new singer. the drummer is an upgrade, but the singing is horrible. and i really can’t even call it singing. he screams, and even that has no tune to it. when he attempts to sing, it just sounds like horse shit. (if you don’t believe me, go and check them out on myspace or facebook! Embrace the Ending– from Minnesota) AND, since they played so late, nearly everyone had left, and nobody even really listened to them. it makes me sad because i know joe loves what he does, and definitely stands out as the talent… best bass player ever! but the other guys don’t really take it as seriously as he does and i think joe needs to find some people that are going to help him succeed, not keep him in crappy small town bars forever.

*he’s at a concert tonight, so i would usually be in bed by now, but i’m staying up doing homework and then side tracking to this… but i really have to move, cuz the baby is gonna beat the shit out of my insides!~*

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didn’t go out for black friday, i was too full from the night before! and they didn’t have anything i really "needed" to get… bought myself a camera (ourselves?) on tuesday. i was dead-set on the nikon that i had seen online, read the reviews, researched the cheapest price, and even called the store to make sure they had it. once i got there, the fucking thing was crap. i was so disappointed. but i got a different nikon that was $50 cheaper, and i had been looking at for over a month. i made sure that i REALLY wanted it, and kept it in the box for  a day, and then i finally decided that is the one i want, and i’ve used it for just a few pictures, and it seems pretty decent. it’ll take good pictures of a new baby… i hope. so now my christmas shopping for joe is done. (we–I DECIDED– decided to buy a camera instead of christmas presents for each other this year, to save on money. we saved $120 from september, and the camera plus memory was $150, so not too bad. he still owes me $20 from last paycheck, but i’ll let it slide for now. little pirate hooker that he is….

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and other than that, i should actually go to sleep… or probably take a shower, or do something other that puter.

peace out.