Procrastination

I really shouldn’t be writing in here, I should be studying for PChem, but I might as well do something productive, rather than play flash games.

I’ve been a bit off lately.  Just rather blah.  If you know what I mean.

PChem is so frustrating.  The class proceeds at a million miles an hour, and we don’t learn any examples or anything.  On Monday night I tried to do the homework, and wound up just breaking down and crying.  It wasn’t just PChem–  I’d been feeling pretty shitty before that (I had, like, two panic attacks at Bryan’s parents’ house) and everything just feel apart.  I then proceeded to have insomnia and stayed up until 3:30.

I didn’t kill my sleep schedule, but I did miss the PChem discussion the next morning.  It’s an attendance-based course.  Boo, Addie!  Boo!  Go to class.

The good news is that the professor is slowing down, after lots of people complained to him.  I’m also getting together with my discussion group on Sunday to study (for our test on WEDNESDAY– doesn’t this seem a bit early, I think so!).  I think that two chapters a week is just far too fast for a class.  Hopefully I’ll be able to get my act together over the weekend.  Max offered to study with me, also.  He is not even stressed about the class– this is the sort of thing where he does well.  Studying with him will be good.  It will get me to calm down a bit.

My other classes are fantastic, though.  Biochem is proving to be very interesting, though not very difficult.  It’s really chemistry-intensive, so I think that’s why the bio kids are having such a hard time with it.  For me, it’s all basic chemistry concepts with an application.  Story problems, essentially.

Foundations of Analysis is pretty fun.  I wind up talking in that class quite a lot, and I’m often incredibly wrong.  Sometimes I worry that other people in the class think that I’m dumb, but I’ve managed to mostly convince myself that that doesn’t matter.  It’s a really fun class.

I’m still the only woman in my partial differential equations class, but that’s alright.  I’ll kick all of their butts come exam time.

I haven’t been working very hard at my "job."  I’ve been so stressed this week, mostly from PChem.  I think everyone has a class that just doesn’t agree with them, and this is mine.  It’s the first one I’ve had to induce this much panic, though, so I dunno…  I just need to breathe.

On an un-school-related note, I have applied to be part of a back pain study.  I screwed up my back last fall, and it’s been bugging me ever since.  I saw this study, and e-mailed the woman in charge of the study.  She gave me a lot more information about it, and it sounded really awesome to me.  Nothing dangerous, and I make $25 for each of three visits.  I get paid to have my back pain helped?  Yes, please!

Okay, I’m going to go study for reals this time.

One more paragraph, though!  I just want to say that I’m really excited for next Monday–  it’s mine and Bryan’s year and a half anniversary.  WOW!  Neither of us are doing so fantastically money-wise, but we’re going to splurge for this occassion and go to a really fancy dinner and just have a fantastic night.  I’m really excited.  Goodnight for reals!