8/17/11

I never came back to continue my last entry……just simply

do not feel like dealing with the thoughts that won’t go away

after thinking about it so long. Plus, other more important

stuff is happening in life.

 

Its bad enough that I ran my normal Wednesday errands and

then came home and took two sleeping pills and am now waiting

for them to kick in. I am going to hide from the world for awhile.

 

Twenty years ago today I believe I was hanging out on a beach at

a state park and rolling to the water every now and then to cool

off. It was horribly hot and I was almost two weeks past my due date.

 

Up until a week after my due date the heat didn’t bother me at all. Which

is really odd because I HATE the heat. I prefer it around the mid 70’s and

then cool at night.

 

My little boy is going to be twenty on Saturday. How did this happen?

 

Since then he has become a firefighter, emt (with both certifications-regular

and advanced,) graduated from high school and graduated from college (with

his associates degree.) Three weeks ago he went and rented his first apartment.

 

Where oh where did my little french fry go?

 

I am turning his bedroom into my craft room. I am really psyched to finally

have a place to have all of my scrapbooking stuff out and not have to store

it away.

 

The cats think the room is their new playground. At least ten toys spread around

in there as well as cat hair on the few items I have managed to haul in there already.

 

Well, I think the pills are kicking in. Goodbye cruel world, I will see you in a few

hours!