For real?!

So I ended up for sure not going to that party which made my son and daughter cry and I felt bad, but I didnt know what to do, so then my BFF text me ask if i was coming, what really?! why would you think I would come? Then since i made the cakes, she txted me to say mmmm the cakes are so good or something similar. ARE YOU SERIOUS? I couldn’t celebrate my sisters fricken birthday because your baby was going to be there, how is it even right to txt me at all, knowing its because of you guys being there. WTF but at the same time you think i can even say anything NO, I am too afraid to hurt other peoples feels or I feel guilty when i say anything that i think is mean or rude. and this would be why people walk all over me. GAWD!!!