how hard is it?!

How hard is it to just ask someone how they are doing? If it was me, and my BFF wasnt answering her phone, or txts i would be worried…not just call once and leave a stupid message, and not even ask how i am doing, then wait a day and call again and just say i miss you…whatever! i know i expect too much of people, i think. I had 2 things hit me at the same time in the same week both SUCKED dont you think i deserve some support?! I have had people who arent as close to me ask me how i am and how i am hanging in there, but not my BFF when Jon died at first she was somewhat supportive but then it was though she was worrying about herself because the guy she was having fantasies about died. She even took two days off of work for the funeral,really?! I think this week has become very hard for me cause i have been busy consoling my husband and my son, who is continually asking questions, you know at this funeral not one person held me when i cried, when my husband got up to speak and my bff right beside me rubbed my arm for a second. not hugged me or anything, i mean people hugged me and such but not when i needed it lol…. maybe i am being selfish….ok i cant right anymore, i am angry and sad and this just makes it worse good night