Don’t know how I’m feeling.
Weird. Kinda down. All sorts of things.
Last night, Yuko, my friend from a couple years ago who moved to Indiana with her boyfriend, was back in Big City visiting–so he could propose! I am actually really excited for her.
However…still feeling down.
Yuko and I became really good friends working at the hotel restaurant as servers in 2011. We were inseparable. Going to the gym together, eating lunch together, hanging out every single day. We had a great friendship. I truly looked at her as my "best friend". I was able to tell her everything and she accepted me.
Well…insert Mark. Her (now) fiance.
When Yuko and I were first friends, I had met Mark because him and Yuko were basically F-buddies–although she wanted so much more from him, and he just didn’t want to be in a relationship. She liked him so much…yet nothing from him. Mark was and is an incredibly nice guy–but after 6 months of them being nothing more than FWB, I was even skeptical that he would ever come around and actually want to date Yuko. I was supportive of her and always there for her, but I also tried to keep her real ya know?
Well FINALLY, Mark took that next step and they became official.
Our friendship remained pretty intact I would say, up until my birthday (June). I was having a big party and what girl has a great party without her best friend? At the time I was 24 and a bit more childish than now–however, Yuko ditched out on me to go on a little vacation with Mark and his family.
Hmph.
I was hurt. Mostly because I had been there for her through all of Mark’s bullshit (and that’s exactly what it was). I totally understood that it was her first time meeting his family and I respected that. HOWEVER, they were going to be in town for 2 weeks spending the whole time with them. I didn’t understand why she couldn’t give up one afternoon to come spend time with me and meet my family for my birthday.
But that was just the beginning of it.
The rest of it was just history. She’d constantly ditch out on me for him. Always. I just got so annoyed with it so one day, I just exploded on her calling her selfish at work.
So.. end of friendship. At least for a bit.
We rekindled again about 6 months later. We met up for dinner and just chatted about life… other stuff. We stayed cordial and even became friends again. Not as close. Of course. But still friends.
Then she moved in August…and it was sad. I didn’t make it to her going away party because it honestly wasn’t important to me.
Well now she’s getting married. And I went and saw her and Mark last night on their last night in Big City. I felt… very weird. A couple of other girls were there that I hadn’t seen in a long time. I don’t know. I’m obviously not part of her wedding but at one point, we talked about each other being in our weddings. So it just felt weird.
*sigh*
Just..weird.
Anyway. Now onto my other fun situation.
My last day with my old company was the 31st. I’m so incredibly happy. The more time I spend away from there, the less stress and anguish I experience. I am more than happy to be moving on. However, my boss allowed me to use my PTO for the last two weeks… but I only got paid for one week. Not the two. Ugh.
Mitchell says I should say something. But I just really don’t want to. I kind of want to let it go. Maybe I will.
But again! Just stress!!!
I am not broke right now by any means… but until I start my new job (which is a pay cut from what I had been getting at the conference center)… I have a lot in savings and have all my bills paid, but of course Christmas did set me back a bit. I bought Mitchell an Xbox One which was expensive haha. So I need to get back on track. I just owe about $1500 which isn’t terrible but I still don’t want to owe it.
Also, I need to get my health insurance figured out. A whole other stress as well… ugh. My company doesn’t do health insurance until after you’ve worked there for however long. So I have to logon and get the other stuff.
Being an adult is fun.
Oh.. and there’s another crazy thing. I got in an accident three years ago, a T-bone accident when I was living across the state. The guy’s car was totaled, but we were both fine. It was in a residential area and we both walked away from it. Now, three years later… he’s suing me. Well, not me, but my insurance company. So I had to go ALL the way to my old city which is 5 hours away and do a deposition (under oath…which is one of the most stressful things ever)… and I have a lawyer and we are fighting this 100%. Ugh. It’s just another annoyance. Now there’s trial next, November? Unless they can come to an agreement. Not sure if that will happen. Still. It’s bullshit. Oh, and it’s not him that’s suing, it’s his BANKRUPTCY estate! Cuz the guy’s broke. Ha. Wow. I love America sometimes.
I am really looking forward to a day when I have no worries and complete peace of mind. Will that ever happen?
I’m still doing really well with my running and working out. My life has drastically improved. I’m so much healthier and happier! I love my Nike+ apps on my iPhone. The running App and the Nike Training Club. Pretty awesome. I also have my $20/month gym membership that includes myself AND Mitchell. I encourage hi
m to go with me! He’s lost about 25 pounds since him and I started dating.
Well. Despite some stresses I have. Life is still pretty good. Getting back into it. Starting my new job Wednesday. 🙂
Much love,
-Elle