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June 22, 2008

I’M BAAAAAACK! And it’s cause Proactive is going down the drain so they lowered the price and are giving away a whole boat load of crap with it!

I wish I knew.

June 22, 2008

That’s just how things work out. Happens to me all the time.

June 24, 2008

ya every thing gets cheaper as the years go by dont u love it i tried proactive didnt work for me

June 24, 2008

dammit lifes a bitch sometimes

June 24, 2008

ryn: thanks for your note! And yes I do owe you an email! I’ve actually been very productive at work these past few days and havent had a chance to reply to ya just yet! But I most definately will do!! xx

June 25, 2008

is looking back bad then? x

June 25, 2008

i think it was thrown at me also, hitting my head, would explain a lot of things. i will never know the answers i suppose, but its something i’m going to have to learn to live with x

I’m sorry i’ve been trying my damndest not to note, but Cj are you seriously pretending to be Jesus? or are you like kinda half joking?

RYN: i knew it was you the second i found your diary. your font and everything is exactly the same, just different colors. i was not going to note but i just had to. just to see if you would respond.

RYN: sorry. i got the first note when i just noted. i didnt see the others until a minute ago. if its any consolation, i miss you. but i’ll leave you be. sorry.

maybe sometime in the future, we can start over.

im kinda speechless now. i’m not quite sure what to say. first of all, i forgive you for the email. it just really scared me Cj. i saw this controlling/jealous side of you, the same one i saw in Steven and i knew i couldnt get into a relationship like that. and you know, maybe i am lonely. i dont know. i do miss the way we used to talk. and i hope you know that you deserve someone better than me.

with that said. this is my last note. i just wanted to apologize and tell you thank you and that i will miss you. and i know you’ll find someone so much better out there. you are such a great person. stop beating yourself up. maybe in the future we will meet again. who knows. it’s all up to God. i think we just met at the wrong time. sorry i couldnt be the person you needed me to be.

RYN: i do but i kinda think i need some time to myself first. of course i dont want you to wait on me. but i just dont want to jump into a relationship yet. does that make sense?

RYN: yes i was talkign relationship. i thought thats what you were talking about. you know i would love to at least try to date you but i’m not ready to jump into another relationship yet. especially with mason. omg he has become so clingy. but i really really would like a friendship. hey why dont you call me tonight so we can talk about it in person? 706-533-2766 and my house is 706-364-8189.

July 1, 2008

ryn: I guess it was the best ever if you like it. Otherwise, it was pure crap. And salt scrub just exfoliates your skin and makes it softer. It’s good for all over use and it makes your skin look more radiant or something.

July 2, 2008

aye that cigarette machine is genuis….i don’t need to get out of my chair to fumare.

July 2, 2008

Sweet I was missed!!! Only like 3 people actually missed me.. Kinda sad If you wanna see pictures from it go to my myspace at http://www.myspace.com/chaoshavoclove and they are in the cruise folder

July 3, 2008

stop by anytime!

July 3, 2008

aye i may be blonde, but i did put it ON me!!

July 5, 2008

ryn: lol that would be horrible to make my “little brother” come clean my apartment!!

July 7, 2008

lol did it really scare you??

July 8, 2008

1)you don’t know if I need make up or not because you’ve never seen me without it! 2)I don’t know why I’m leaving this note bc I’m about to be late for class…I’ll be back

July 10, 2008

good morning!!

July 10, 2008

lol I have OD plus now and so i now have chapters..and my last 2 entries are in different chapters..sermons and devotionals

July 10, 2008

and no I’m not napping YET!

July 10, 2008

lol hush

July 10, 2008

why?! lol. i have anyway! jesus should know this

July 10, 2008

hahaha! sorry! haha

July 10, 2008

ryn: yeah I wasn’t talking down on it..I thought maybe I’m missing out on something! I’m not all about denomination..I think too many people focus on that and not on their relationship with God. I do think me and my Baptists need to loosen up some lol btw..I just woke up from my nap lol

July 11, 2008

yeah man.. if i knew what repenting bloody meant! haha

July 13, 2008

RYN: That’s why I’m a walking contradiction. 🙂 Actually its green because I like the color green. That simple.

July 15, 2008

ryn: aww thanks! did you have a nice weekend?

July 17, 2008

when are you going to do another entry??

July 18, 2008

so if I write you an email..you will write an entry?

July 18, 2008

sure…practice all you want

July 18, 2008

i sent you a myspace friend request

July 24, 2008

kids these days…

July 25, 2008

A) I think the 19 dollar package is the trail pack though…much smaller bottles. Thats my guess, cause I tried it like a year ago. B) You obviously dont live in Florida…one roach doesnt mean 1,000…it MIGHT but probably not.

July 25, 2008

Lol. I wasn’t aware that Jesus has acne:))

July 30, 2008

YOU SIR…need to respond to my email

RYN: Yea, it says that on the actual scrapbook page. o.O

RYN: It is… That’s why I said… It says THE OHIO STATE UNIVERSITY on the actual page (the 2nd picture). Just because my title only says “Ohio State” doesn’t mean I don’t know the name of it. I live in Columbus… I *think* I know which school I’m referring to. So I don’t get your point…?

RYN: That’s news to me… All of their logo info is still THE Ohio State (per their site – http://www.osu.edu/).

August 7, 2008

RYN: Thanks for your note. I am acting weak. I dont know what has gotten into me lately.

August 7, 2008

RYN: But he knows that…he knew I wanted to be with him back in Dec. He knew I wanted to be with him 2 weeks ago when we talked. The thing is…HE KNOWS ME. Really really well. So he doesnt have to read between any lines. Also he knows that I’m smart enough NOT to date him right after a break up. He knows I’m not a rebound girl. TRUST me when I say he does know me. If nothing else.

August 7, 2008

I did think about however if I were her. I would not want some ex coming up and tell him she wanted to be with him. I let the situation get out of hand 2 weeks ago when we talked on the phone. I’ve decided as of today that I wont contact him anymore unless he contacts me.

August 8, 2008

ok so it’s been like a million weeks since I’ve emailed you..time to email me back kiddo!

August 8, 2008

ryn: um..to be perfectly honest that is not a good excuse!

August 10, 2008

A rainbow is when you stand with your feet touching and there is a space between your thighs…your thighs dont touch…leaving a small rainbow like shap. Also thanks for the lesson about sex being icing on the cake. I think I know that after sitting in enough youth group sessions though…

ah! you ALMOST left an actual note!! its about time!

August 21, 2008

hey kiddo! I sent you an email..I want a response..and no excuses lol

August 21, 2008

no idea – who are you?

August 24, 2008

well i don´t plan on stayin away for too long this time

September 8, 2008

Where have ya been mista? how are ya?

September 9, 2008

where did you disappear to??

ryn: yeah things are looking up for me. thanks for asking

September 15, 2008

Ha. So gutted. also, yeah I tried that but he just gets offended and upset ¬¬

September 17, 2008

hey – come on msn?

October 7, 2008

why is it you have this ability to take a complete train wreck and make sense of it!

October 9, 2008

doesn’t it seem i’m always in a train wreck?

October 9, 2008

Well Big J, can you conjure up my rich doctor man please. I miss the beach already :-(. It’s kind of scary you say that actually because I’m looking at repping jobs…

October 16, 2008

i know because my white jeans was the most important thing for me to worry about when i was getting stabbed in the leg and abdomen… thank you! *passes you birthday cake* x

October 16, 2008

oh and big J, can you do an entry yourself…?x

October 16, 2008

chocolate cake… and yes that would make me very happy 🙂