Saturnight!

I dont feel well today. My head hurts in more ways than one. I don’t feel like doing anything. I just want ot sleep. Unfortionately I can’t do that. I don’t have that option. The frustration I felt last night still lingers. I don’t have any energy to give anybody. I have had a headache all week long. It won’t go away.

Group today was pointless. Im thankful I do have a support group to go to, I could have nothing, but it just wasn’t helpful today. It was just three of us, and it was more small talk than anything. There was a car show down town today, and that was more than distracting. Not only were there cool cars to look at out of the windows, but there was a lot of interesting and cool people around as well. I spent much of the time looking all around and wondering what it would be like to have the awesome VW bus parked right outside.

I also spent much of the time feeling frustrated and not wanting to talk. It may have been a good time to release a lot of that frustration, but I didn’t take the oppportunity. Thats my fault. I shouldn’t really be complaining about that.

Spending time with Caleb and Josh is helpful. I love them deerly and they help relieve some of my stress. I love that they can do that with out even trying. They have no idea how frustrated I have been feeling, they have no idea about the stress, the anger, they just know how to be kids. I love that. It really helps me. They make me laugh and I can forget about the negative for awhile. Tonight Josh was talking about something or another and he said last Saturnight…I may use that from now on, its no longer  just Monday etc…, its Monday or Monnight, Tuesday or Tuesnight…Come to think of it, Sunnight wouldn’t really work now would it, it would have to be Moonnight. But that would be the only day to make that swictch, and things could get confusing! And it would be confusing when you would say its midnight on Monnight!

I would love to snuggle with my dog Lexie. I miss her to pieces. She was so hugable.

That was random! I have an old bandana Lexie used to wear tied around my purse strap.I at least have that with me! Dont worry, its clean and not dingy. And now because Im a big sap, Im getting all teary eyed thinking about her….

Moving on…..

Moving on to what? I have nothing to move on to..

I feel like I can’t breathe. I think its just things catching up to me. If that makes any sense at all.

mmmmm….some of the olympic dude swimmers are talking and wow….mmmmm. Nice to look at indeed!

That too was random. That was a distraction. A very nice distraction, a distraction that was much appreciated! It pretty much stopped me dead in my tracks! 

Have you ever seen a purple pepper? I didn’t know that there was such a thing as purple peppers. I picked a peck of purple peppers today. they were not pickled though. And it was only one purple pepper, not a peck of them! I picked it from the garden that dosen’t belong to me. I also picked some giant tomatoes, unfortionatley they wern’t purple. That would have been fun! I gave the purple pepper to somebody. I don’t know if I trust purple peppers. It might be a martian pepper Maybe I can call up Dr. Pepper and ask what he or she thinks about the purple pepper. Dr. Pepper is a pepper expert and can answer all of your pepper questions! Call up Sprite if you have any mythical fantasy questions.

I am so very lame.

This entry has taken a few turns.

I am now distracted by some track event where a girl named Jessica Ennis just crushed the other girls in a race. Pretty cool I’d say! She’s good. Wow! Good for her, thats awesome, and now I think she is too cute! she is relly pretty though. Oh, it was the heptathalon. Thats just crazy. I want to give a high five to everybody competing at the olympics.

Oh. More guy swimming! Nice

Cool. Theyare talking about a guy from China who practices in Australia with an Australian coach and they communicate mostly by gestures. That sweet. He’s got some hipster hair going on. It works for him, and his coach looks like the man who plays the father in My Father the Hero. Has anybody ever seen that? Kathryn Heigel (sp??) plays in it, but she was pretty young.

What the hell are false starts for? Are they always an accident or is it done on purpose.

You know what I learned the other day? Caterpillars can sting, or is it bite? Either way, I didn’t know they could do that. A boy from work got bit/stung by a strange ass caterpillar on Friday..Frimorning…and it left a big mark. He said he was doing work in the garden when it happened. He captured it and put it in a freezer bag with a leaf. sounds pretty silly if his intention was to kill the bugger! What purpose did the leaf serve? Was it to create a peacful enviorment in which the caterpillar could pass peacefully in? Anyway, he was a little cute actually, he looked like he was wearing on of our summer camp shirts, and he looked a little like an alien. Beware shirt wearing alien like caterpillars. They are not as friendly as they appear. They will not make a good pet!

Watch out for birds and whales too. Just because.

Wow, swimming is intense.

Yay for the guy from China! He kicked some ass. Oh, he’s crying tears of joy. High Five!

I think I may want to get a big Himalayan Poppy tattoo in the middle of the top of my back. Its more of a thought right now. It would be a cover up for the star tattoo I already have. It would work with the poppies I already have on my back.

…see? I think they are really pretty! Thanks google for finding this picture of the himalayan poppy! High Five!

I think it would just be one big blossom, no leaves or stems or anything.

I think its time to end this entry.