(thinking Karma is a btch)The one btch I fear

You feel like something’s ended, but really, that just means that something else is about to begin. It’s time to discard the pieces of a life that no longer suits you. Get ready to greet a brand-new day.

I am finally able to let go of Savita completely. I can breathe once again. I have no evil thoughts. I mean there was a few a couple of day ago but it is gone. I think I what two connect to her. It was like she was my first love but not in the I am gay way. I mean she was the first person I care about and the first person that love outside of family that I have to love. There were a lot of things that went wrong.

They are not in the past but I am glad because I am not longer afraid to open my heart to people. All in all it was a good trade her friend for a happy future. I do not think I will ever reconil our friend she. Because for all the good the was three times the bad.

I am moving on now to my own life. Although I kind of feel I got the better deal. I gain need friend I have a couple(yes a couple) of more then guys friend, never said I was a Saint. And I am giving but not to the point that people can use me. I do not do anything until I think long and hard and only if I want to. Not to make some feel good or like me more.

However on the down I am alittle too senstive about people being mad at me.

However I have heard she is stuck in a job she does not like. And by the number of medical bills coming to the house I think she is sick. Also she is living with here boyfriend and using be as the reason. We are roommates and she does not want to like in the same house as me, or she say because her boyfriend house is close to work or something else. I am happy that went I move I will no longer be an excuse for her.

I do not feel bad about anything above but a common friend told be she stop trying with Savita when she acted like she did not want us around for her b-day. Ironic because she stop being my friend when I acted jealous on her birthday.

(thinking Karma is a bitch)The one bitch I fear