*&$*@$&*$&*@(edited swearing)

I do not know sh*t.

These are the events my day.
I just found out one of my last guy friend is
enaged and going to have a birthday.
My aunt has a brain aneurysm and it is in
surgery as right.

I am in shock should I be happy or sad
that all of this crazy stuff is happening to other
and not me. My guy friend well is crazy it one
second it is not free anymore. My aunt I do not
know what is going on I hope she is okay. She
is like a mother to me she raise me. So why do I
not have any emotion right now may be it is
because I was crying last night about being alone
and I have no more tears.

Crying I always cry when I really I am alone
And that no one, well, not guy loves me. I am
so confused. All these people are getting married
around me and having babies and all I can this
I am happy it is not me. But what if one day soon
that turn into why not me. Do I repeal men?

I have to work now.