Dear Tracie

CONCEPT.
30 DAYS , 30 UNSENT LETTERS.

Day 1 — Your oldest friend
Day 2 — Your crush / significant other
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/Ex-girlfriend
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind — good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of time
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Tracie.

Gosh, you know I think we met on my first day of school.
Story goes, you teached me to tie my shoelaces.
You lived just around the corner from my house, your birthday was one week before mine, your phone number was the same as mine with the last three digits backwards. 
I know we just were as thick as thieves.

So much of our friendship has so many happy memories to me… funny and crazy times.
From 5-18 we just were as close as you could get. 
But things started going differently in our last year of High School, you were "engaged" to one of the high school losers, you became that person dropping out of all your classes, hanging out at someone house smoking, ditching school. 
You had no thoughts of the future or of any career plans.
You always used to be the good girl with the strict parents, but maybe that’s what made you go off the rails a little. 
After high school we absolutley went our separate ways, but I always knew where you were and what you were doing thanks to a pretty small town and close knit friends.

We faded in and out of each others lives alot. 
But we were back in enough for you to make the move to Australia a couple of months after I did.
Thats the best thing you have done in a long time. 
You were on a close road to turning out like your mother.
You can see that, because your little sister is the spitting image of her herself. 
Then there would have been three of you. Housebound and miserable and blaming the world for your misfortunes.

I got involved with a man, and you showed a completely jealous and horrible side to you.
I can’t say that I was completely surprised, but I always wanted to know what the hell was going through your head that halloween night?
I just don’t understand what happened, and unfortunatly for both of us… our friendship will never recover from that.

Yes, you are on my facebook page. 
I do have your email address and your phone number, but I have never used either of them.
Which is sad, because you are like a sister to me.  And no one has ever known me the way that you did.

I remember emailing you in desperation when I found out I was pregnant last year and your soul searching words of wisdom were " that sucks aye, everytime I have sex with my boyfriend, I always freakout thinking I might get preggers"

It was then I that I truelly thought that this relationship has run its course.

I was older, you were still that same person. 
Still so dependant on other people. 
Still with no desires or ambition.

But to me, your’ll always be that girl with the tight perm and the dragon green eyes.
I do miss you..
i just wish we could have traveled down the same road, and not completely different ones.

Theres so many times I’d like to talk to talk to you, but…
thats not going to happen.

Miss you Jay.

Love Always.

Jai