goal setting

So tonight I’m skipping Focus.  I know at least part of it is feeling sick.  But about half of the reason I’m not going is feeling antisocial.  I really think that most of the antisocial behavior is caused by feeling fat and gross.  I had a super unhealthy day of eating and I’m really going to have to eat healthy this week to make up for it. 

I may have unrealistic expectations for myself, but I really feel like if I could just get motivated I could easily lose the weight I want to lose.  It’s only at maximum 28 pounds.  I’m not sure if i would lose 15 or 20 and feel like my body was perfect.  I just know that If I really put my mind to it I wouldn’t have a problem.  But as soon as I lose focus I start to eat junk and the junk food makes me feel tired and lazy.  Plus I bought halloween candy which is twice as bad, because my body reacts to the sugar and shuts down.  I’m really going to try.  November is a good month because I’m already going to try to journal every day so I’ll try to update just a little at the end, post entry, about how I’m doing. 

Here are my goals:  The long term goal is to lose 15-28 pounds.  I know it’s a wide range,  I’m just not sure where my body will feel right.  Short term, to achieve my long term goal I want to stick to a super healthy diet, lot’s of fruits and vegetables and no refined sugars or extra fat.  I also want to to work up to running an hour twice a day. That would build up my cardio endurance and slim down my legs and hips.  I would like to be able to work in strength training at the gym a few days a week for my upper body, to tone my arms and abs and back. 

I’m excited for the next few weeks, but I have a lot to do to make up for missing the study time.  I have a major project coming up in my Mixed Media class and I have a commercial in my Digital Music class that i have no idea how to start, just because I’m afraid to record my own voice.  Plus I have exams coming up in history and a few big ballet things that I just haven’t quite nailed.  Particularly pique turns.  I know it’s pretty basic but I’m having troubles…

Still I’m glad to have the distraction.  There’s not too long before the wedding, but without some breakup of the monotony It would have been just long enough to go insane.

Anyway, I’ll be working and expect some updates on my status.  I’m definately going running tomorrow.  hopefully I can go twice.  And I’m putting the candy away.  No more, just healthy food until the wedding.  or at least as much as I can.  I won’t become a recluse who doesn’t eat out or anything.

Crystal