He’s back!

So I’m back in Dallas after spending a week with Zakk in NC.   It’s amazing to have him back again.  I can’t believe how amazing it felt to be held again.  I seriously didn’t want to let go of him. 

But, not to be ungrateful, things are a little weird.  Before he left we were in this really great place.  We had a really amazing relationship.  I was totally confident in things and he was so sweet.  But since he’s been back things are… different.  He keeps acting around me like he would with other guys.  And he’s kind of a jerk to other guys.  It’s really weird and it’s shaking my confidence a little.  Actually a lot.  I start to worry if maybe he’s talking to other girls and that’s why he’s acting the way he is.  He says he just doesn’t know how to interact with people anymore, but I don’t buy it because he has no problem being normal around strangers. 

It’s not like it’s totally messed up either.  There are times when he’s still super sweet.  But it seems weird to me that after 7 months of being without me he would be this way at all.  I expected it to be like a new honeymoon phase.  And I think he did too because when we would talk on the phone while he was away he told me about how excited he was to see me again and how amazing it was going to be. 

I guess I just have to give it a little while for him to relax.  It was a long deployment and maybe he just needs a chance to get used to being home.  I really hope things go back to normal really quickly though.  I don’t like this feeling.