Leap Day

Yesterday I went to work, still fully awake from the events of the night before. I wasn’t tired, or sleepy, but I did feel a bit rundown.

Mary trained me on Terralink stuff and then I came here early. It looked like I was just going to have a relaxing night at home, but then Lauren called me around 11 and come over crying. A teacher had brought up ‘stereotypes’ in class and Lauren discussed how, as a lesbian, she’s seen certain stereotypes. The teacher then got in her face and pointed out that there was a child in the classroom and she shouldn’t use ‘mature language.’

Of course, Lauren hadn’t talked about anything except her personal identity. She was devastated and embarrassed that the teacher felt her sexual identity was ‘mature’ and ‘inappropriate’ for discussion in class. She really just needed a shoulder to cry on for a bit while she decided what to do. I made her tea, let her pet the kitty, and lay in bed with her while she called a couple of other lesbian friends to talk about it.

Later, after she left, I was pretty tired and ready for bed, but then Emily came online. I was upset at her because I hadn’t seen her for weeks, but just like the fall before, she was making more and more excuses about why we couldn’t hang out soon. Next weekend she would even be coming back up to Cockeysville, but she said on the phone that she’d have to spend time with her sister and ‘would be busy with other stuff.’ I was so annoyed.

I didn’t want to feel like all the drama and difficulty I had been through the past month or two was for nothing, but I finally told her that if she couldn’t find time for me, we’d have to stop seeing each other. If she wanted to hang out in the future, she’d have to let me know. She took it pretty well, I think. I’m not sure how this changes anything, really, except that I’ll be able to date other people and she won’t be stringing me on until May. We didn’t stop talking really, but around 1 I finally ducked out to get some rest. I hadn’t slept at all the night before and I would need to get up early for work the next day.

Today, leap day, I worked again. I was doing regular public programs stuff, but as the day wore on I became absolutely exhausted. Normally on Wednesday I go to my parents for dinner, but when I left the Science Center a tow truck was completely blocking the entrance to 95 and some traffic cop was just standing there waving people by. Like, hello lady. Maybe you could, you know, wave the truck five meters further up the road so that it’s not in the middle of the main exit artery for the city.

Feeling like I was about to pass out, I called my mom and said I couldn’t make it, then drove home. I’m trying to stay up until 10ish, at the moment, in the hopes that I won’t completely ruin my sleep schedule. At least this horrid month is almost over. It’s been too long already.