Barney Shake

I love these freaking things. I’m glad I have nothing more important to write about in my diary then stupid smoothies I make at work…. Blech. I’ve started adding either cucumber or random lettuces to them and they’re turning out super yum. It sounds SO disgusting to put a cucumber in a blender but the little stick blender makes it soup, and it’s virtually tasteless. That whole volumetrics idea of feeling full with less calories I guess. The only real source of calories (since cucumber, most of the spinach, and berries all have ‘negative’ calories and sort of cancel each other out) is non-fat yogurt, the scoop of protein, the teaspoon of ground flax and a banana if I choose to add one. I’m all for it. If i’m super horrifically hungry I’m adding more veggies (read, a 2.5 cup smoothie yesterday with an ENTIRE freaking cucumber in it and a cup of spinach before it got blended down) which surprisingly kept me full until a very late lunch. I’ve been making kabobs out of chopsticks (hey, it’s not my house, I’ll improvise) and grilling all sorts of veggies on the George Foreman and it’s super yum.

I haven’t worked out since Sunday, and it’s Wednesday! I don’t know WHAT’s going on. I’ve been so horrifyingly exhausted at night for no good reason. I get home, do one or two things, and suddenly I’m crawling into bed. I was in bed at 7 last night! And then, I was in a strange suspension not able to fall asleep until about 10. That’s 3 wasted hours!!! My boss today told me that sometimes when you have allergies you can be terribly exhausted. I’ve been feeling sleepy and my eyes are always drippy and tired and my throat’s started feeling a bit….not dry, but just sore slightly, especially if I don’t get enough sleep that night. Maybe I’m allergic to all the glorious pollen everyone talks about flying around here. Blech. I sure hope that’s what’s behind my slump.

I saw today that I got charged for my next month of the gym that I STILL have not gone to. I’m making a goal of going at least 3 times before my trip. That can be worth it, right? Then, I’ll come back refreshed and I’ll be able to go a lot more! My goal is to go 5x a week. I’m (usually) working out every day. I think I’ll get up every morning and go to the gym super early. I want to go when it’s as empty as possible, and I’m sure there’s not a lot of traffic at 5:30am. Then go home, shower, head to work. When I get home, I’ll walk Nugget after dinner, and then I won’t feel so irresponsible for working out while he sits at home alone. And I ALSO won’t fall victim to feeling totally tired and allowing myself to skip my GD workouts! I’ll get on the weight bench or something in the evening, if I can squeeae in the 30 minutes before work. To realistically lose this much weight, I need to log an hour of cardio daily. If I count my walks with Nugget at 15 minutes (1 lap is a mile, and takes 20 minutes to get from my door and back or so), and then a walk with babylove at work at 15 (regardless of whether or not I’m actually doing something like 35 or 50 minute walks) that’ll equal my hour easily. Any tips for my insane amount of anxiety regarding the damn gym? The ellipticals and the treadmills are the back row, the row that you see first thing when you walk in the freaking door. In all honesty, if they were in a back corner, I’d probably be fine. I just feel this overwhelming sense of all-eyes-on-me, the fat girl, going slower then everyone else and sweating all gross-like. I’m being dumb.

I’m watching Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood at work. I so long to live in the South with 3 best friends and have all those memories. Ahhh…dorky.

I’m leaving on my trip in just a few weeks! I bought some super cute stuff at the mall this weekend (read….Ross/Gordmans and a sale on Aero flip flops), including two of those sweetass shirts that’re like a normal tank top in the front and then are sort of racer-backed but with more embellishment. Despite my back-roll, I have pretty awesome clear skin/broad shoulders/tan to pull it off, around the roll. I’m still deciding on the 1 though. We’ll just have to see.

Not a lot of other interesting stuff really going on. My hag sister graduates on Friday. I’m working 2:30-sometime on Friday and she graduates on noon, total excuse to dip out early. Then Saturday evening working here, Sunday from like 5 am until afternoon working, and I think Monday off, thank Jesus. I registered for my 12 credits this summer, now I just have to see if I actually WANT to go to an evening class of it online is a big price difference and I can just do that instead. Hello, anti-social.

There’s an overcast today, but it’s still warm/muggy, and it makes my sad because I want to sit in the sun. It always makes me feel great to just get hot in direct sunlight 🙂

What a pointless entry