Baby you and my love it’s undeniable.
So. Today wasn’t too terrible. The kids listened for the most part, and I got to do a project with them today. It was nice. There was a lot of them still, but they weren’t nearly as crazy as they have been, which was nice.
John’s phone was dead all day, which I didn’t know until after he had gotten off work, so he hadn’t talked to me all day and I was really worried. I thought either I had done something wrong or something bad had happened. It was shitty. So I spent most of the day worrying and feeling really sick… But all was good as soon as he texted me.
After I got off work, I started cleaning out my bedroom closet. It was RIDICULOUS. It took me THREE HOURS to get everything out of it and all the pointless stuff thrown away. It was crazy, but I’m so proud of how good it looks. Found some old notebooks and diaries I would like to read through, but I’m not entirely sure I’m ready for that, so I put them in a box and sat it in my room for another day.
Amber texted me today asking if I wanted to get an apartment with her. I asked what was going on and she said that Donny’s mom was kicking her out and she didn’t know why, which doesn’t really add up to me. But she then told me Donny would be moving with as well, and I don’t know. I want. A place with John. I want us to have our own place. Our own little home. That’s all I want. I’m talking to him about it now. Told him it would have to be out here. I don’t know how he feels about it honestly. He seems very… I don’t even know. He just doesn’t seem super enthused about the idea. Though I know he DOES want us to have our own place… I dunno… I just. Meh.
Wednesday tomorrow already. Hump DAAAAAAAAAY.
I miss John… A lot… I hate how much I have nightmares now when I’m not with him… He seems to be the only thing that keeps them away anymore… Meh…
Well. I have to get myself somewhat tired so I can get some sleep tonight before work…
<3CaseyRenee<3