I think you’re a pretty sweet pill…

Well. This weekend was nearly as perfect as I had expected it to be…

Friday night after I finished getting showered and such, John and Shane came to pick me up. We went to Rockford and picked up Roberto, then headed back home. A few of the guys friends were there. Matt and Kyle, and Rachel. Apparently some shit went down with Kyle and Rachel, which I wasn’t there to experience because I was hiding in John’s room. I feel uncomfortable around new people… But after a while I went downstairs and hung out with everyone. Tina came home with a handle of vodka, and John was makin drinks haha. He made Rachel one because she was upset, but she refused to drink it haha. Roberto. Oh my goodness that boy was SO fucked up. John and I were laughing at him for a good like 15 minutes. John said he laughed himself an eight pack haha. Berto ended up projectile vomiting allllll over the carpet in the living room so John and Tee pretty much carried him outside. Had to keep an eye on him that night. They ended up locking him in Tee’s back seat after they got back from Walmart so he couldn’t escape and roll all over the place again haha. I got quite intoxicated that night. John made me a mixed drink to start me off. Then I had one before he and Tee and Roberto went to Walmart, then another while after they left, and another while they were gone, and ANOTHER right before they got home. My drinks slowly got stronger and stronger haha… He got home and I was slightly wobbly, but we went to bed shortly after. The night? Perfect. Do you know how wonderful it is to have someone look you in the eyes and tell you they love you over and over again while you’re having sex? I die. Every time. It’s too amazing. We didn’t finally fall asleep until like four in the morning. 

John woke me up the next morning quiiiiite early, but it was definitely worth it. He’s such a passionate person. I adore every bit of it. He left for work real early, which kind of sucked. I fell back asleep after he left. Didn’t wake up and shower until one haha. Animal had her friend Bailey over and they were getting ready for the fair and stuff, and Tina and I were talking and well. She wants me to get pregnant. SO fucking bad. She keeps telling me she wants a white baby to spoil, and that she would be Nana, and all this other stuff. It’s so crazy. I’ve never had a boyfriend with a mom who WANTS me to get pregnant. Granted she’s not his real mom, I’m pretty sure he considers her that. After Animal and Bailey were all done getting ready they woke Shane up to go take them to Bailey’s house and for us to pick up John. I went with, and seeing him made my whole day better. Shane and John stopped at subway and got food before we went home. The evening was going well, and everything was good. Then my night went south real fast. Got my damn period. And then I was all moody. And felt like crap. And John was asking what was wrong and I told him my stomach hurt and he asked why and I didn’t want to just out and out say it so he thought I meant I was pregnant and I felt SO bad because he like, almost had a damn heart attack and such. I felt horrible. He ended up going to Walmart again and I went to his room and laid in his bed and died for a while. He came and was talking to me when he got home and asked if I wanted to sleep alone, and I guess I said no kinda snippety, so he left me alone for a while. I ended up falling asleep and being woken up to John telling me that Tori texted him saying she HAD to talk to me. Some shit happened with Noah, so that was scary to wake up to haha. But John curled up in bed with me after that. Apparently I didn’t snuggle him that night, and I feel really bad…

Woke up this morning. Decided to let John sleep. Went and took a shower and he was up when I got out. He got all ready for work and whatnot. We went upstairs before he left and snuggled for a while. I don’t remember why I did it but I pinched his chin and he told me he didn’t like being pinched and went to pull the blanket over his face, and I thought he was going to throw his phone at me, and I felt, so horrible for saying that… He got so upset… He got up and left, and I just curled up in a ball and started to cry… He came back up shortly before he had to leave and laid by me and said he would never hurt me and that he doesn’t want me to think he will… Gave me kisses and left. I texted him shortly after apologizing. I know he would never hurt me. Ever… And I told him that. He saw that I flinched… And I told him it was because of my past. He understands. All is good. Tee took me home shortly after John went to work. 

Mom and I went out and got Taco Bell, Beer and Dari Ripple when I got home. After that I got pretty and had to go check on Uncle Bob to make sure he was alright. Knocked on the door and had a heart attack when he didn’t answer. He was fine though, thank god. I was so scared I was going to be the one to find him passed… After that I went back home. Got ready for an afternoon with Gino.

We met at the usual place. Talked for a while before setting off for our adventure. We walked through the park into Spencer. He took me back to his secret place and we hung out by the river before deciding to go for a swim. The water felt AMAZING. After we dried off by sunshine for a while, we went walking again. Ever so intelligent me decided "Oh we’re gonna walk through all this thick grass and overgrowing plants and shit to find our way out!" Ended so badly. Gino actually RECORDED me tripping and squeeking and cutting myself on thorns during this. It was so ridiculous. We left Spencer park and went to the little Hindu shop by my old apartments and then walked to shell to get coffee. He walked me home after that. 

Now I’m lying in bed, dying, missing John more than anything. I swear, I’m going to marry him. Mark my words. I will be Casey Renee Morris before I fucking die<3

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