Its all over

Amy,

So the month of August was just a bad roller coaster that wouldnt stop. The day after I wrote you August 1st, Kia and slept together again. We ended up having a secret rendevous at a motel 6 and sleeping together. Yet I was still able to see it as just sex until he actually stayed the night and I ended up being attached.

From that day on things just got worse for me. I was totally mind fucked so I asked him to stop and then 3 weeks ago before I went to napa we got into huge fight were basically our friendship ended. Because of tthings that were said I felt guilt and sincerely sorry and yesterday he took my heart out with saying that he didnt want my friendship or felt that there was any need to ever talk to me again. It burned, it hurts but its over. Im moving forward bc whats the point of dwelling. things were just not meant to work out. we have too different communication styles. He is too insuecure , constantly need reassurance while i need love and care. He isnt what I need or want. The attention kept us there, but its done. Two months it lasted, it felt like 6 months, but its over. Now I have to pick up thte pieces of myself and keep walking towards what I need to do for me. I just think that he could have given me a second chance instead of throwing away my friendship like it wasnt worth anything. But all in all its his loss not mine. I have my life, my friends and he has nothing to offer anyone.

I think another reason why he wanted it completely over as well, is because I make him feel horrible about how shitty his life is, because mine is so awesome. But that is no longer my concern. I had great adventures with him. I had great memories, and constant laughing fests but it wasnt meant to last more than what it did. I will now move and shine down my sunshine to those who can actually appreciate it and value it for what its for…unforgettable and one of a kind. : )