Dreaming of him

Amy,
I dreamt of Alejandro last night. I hate when that happens but at the same time its nice. We shared 3 years together. I do miss him at times but I also know I am holding on to it because he was the comfort the known. We cant make each other happy. Our time came and went its over but the sweet memories will live with me forever.
My dream was that I saw him, or we had a conversation but it was too hard to see him so I left and went to Rhiannon where I told her crying that it was too painful to be around him. It was so interesting because it was also very beautiful. Something about him and I in that dream made it surreal. Like a beautiful innocent dream of just our once held love. But like a dream now that im writing about it,im letting it vanish like a vapor of smoke. It was beautiful because it was a dream. I do know now that I will always love and care for him in my own way but we can never be together forever. It was beautiful in the times it lasted. I know I learned a lot about myself in that relationship. Its time for me to keep healing myself, keep changing myself and love myself so that when Im really ready God will bestow upon me a real love that I can cherish and appreciate. For I have hope in love but most importantly I have hope in myself. And at present time its what matters more.