Hormones

OK, I disappeared for a bit.  Completely.  I checked out.  But I have a good excuse. My doctor for some reason decided to try changing the type and amount of hormones I am taking and it just wrecked me.  It felt like three years ago when I first started taking them.  I was crying all the time about nothing.  I didn’t want to be with anyone except Cindy for some reason.  I was even unhappy to be around Guy.  Fortunately everyone knew it was just the hormones and that I would get through it.  I knew it too, but that didn’t make it any easier for me.  

Things have settled down a little now, but I’m still not feeling great.  I called Megan just now and cried on the phone with her about how much I miss her.  I don’t really miss her that much.  I’m actually kind of happy that she finally went back to Florida.  But on the phone I couldn’t stop feeling emotional.

The wedding is just over two months away and I’m getting nervous.  Not nervous about marrying Guy, but nervous about the whole production and having everything come out perfect.  

I wish I had more to update, but it’s really just been nothing but tears for the last few weeks…