06/16/2010

 All my life I tried to do right and stay strong

I had fucked up hard times growing up

Im damaged

Growin up

But life isnt gettin easier

Ive been gettin better

and sicker

Im starting to give into the sickness

Doin things I regret

Cause people that I love arent treatin me good yet

Im pushin them away

I want them to stay

But i just want people to treat me okay now

Ive been standing under a ongoing rockslide

that follows me when i move

and when i try and climb it

my face gets smashed

I thought id be safe when i make it to the top

but there is none i can only fall

and loose my pride

cause now the rocks are hurtin me more than last time

just the tiniest one

Im mad and confused 

but determined

just wish i could know what to do

Im lost and i thought it would end

only the rocks just got bigger

and now im gettin sicker

I was gettin stronger

but now sometimes i feel like givin up

yep you win

only they arent lookin for that satisfaction

and it never stops

and now im carryin things with me i picked up along the way

my load is heavy

but i got things to bring

to the light at the end of a tunnel

if it is real

if not

so what

i wont know till i know

but until than

its an adventure

and some of those rocks hittin me now

are me throwin them up at the people throwin them down