i was wrong

 Wow what is there to say. This is for you clint and im hoping its not too late for you to sit here with me and read this. I did it this way so i can be with you when you read it and i wont be able to say it right to you. But i know your really mad at me. I had no idea how bad things were for you. I always asked you to talk to me and when you did i interupted and thought i could fix it before i even know. So while you kept trying to talk to me more and more….i got so confused and would go crazy. Get mad. I thought it was your familys fualt why they hated me.. But i uderstand now that it was you who needed to leave. I thought they were just pressuring you to drink and didnt give a shit about anything else. So i got mad and i wouldnt have if i only knew how bad things were. I thought we were perfectly fine. I thought you forgave me everytime i appoligzed. I thought i just loved you soooo damn much and i didnt think you loved me. But if you put up with me yelling and screaming at you and calling down your family and than start crying. You were always there to make me feel better and say its not my fualt . Now THAT is true love .