Malcolm Rian

So I have a nephew…..he was born recently…whoa…I don’t really even know the date off my head.

Anyway, Jon and Sue came up for Christmas and I’ve gotten to see him quite a bit. He’s really really cute! Oops…he’s back…I heard him downstairs just now. He really is sweet(no sense of humor) but that’s ok…;)

Anyway, it’s made me really begin to think. I mean, here is this little bundle of joy that is my nephew, which means I’m an uncle. And with that I begin to think about my life and I’ve come to some major decisions.

One: I want a family and I really need to figure out what it is that makes me happy. I’ve figured out that the reason my relationships don’t last so long is the fact that the ones I end up with weren’t the ones I was pursuing. I need that chase, that hope against hope that they’ll have me to make me really appreciate having them. Of course, the ones who just give in don’t seem to have the same appeal and I really don’t know why. It’s not the enduring suffering that I need, I guess it’s just that the ones I’ve ended up dating aren’t the ones I’ve ever been worried about asking out because I knew without a doubt they liked me. I can’t really explain it all that well, but I want a family and children…..not that that is a big decision, I guess I always wanted that.

Two: After watching some huge documentaries on JRR Tolkien, I’ve decided that I’m going to invest my life in writing both Legacy novels like The Thirteenth Watcher AND acting. I already have religions and races and cultures and languages and animals and all sorts of things designed, so I think I’m just going to create a great new world that shall be realized as an escape for all those sick of this world.

Thirdly: California is calling me. I think sometime this summer I’m going to go out there or to New York and be like: “Here is some copyrighted material, tell me if you’d publish any of it.” Bing bang boom…nothing happens, nothing happens. Otherwise, I get published which would be something else. I’m very excited…..we’ll have to see where all this goes.