ps..

i just had an epiphany sort of…

 

I always chase after people (specifically guys) who don’t make time for me.  I keep doing it even though i know i deserve someone who wants to make time for me, and put forth the same efforts i do.  I can’t seem to stop.  I do it because im afraid that there is no one out there who does want to make the effort for me.  Experience has made me believe this…

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March 24, 2008

I’ve been there too, fortunately I got out of that, don’t really know how that happened though. I guess I met a decent guy…after a couple of years. If you need to talk 🙂 you can always swing by my diary.

March 24, 2008

lol. u got a positive attitude.

March 24, 2008

there is, i promise! i went through this part of my life where i was desperate to find “the one”, and i was dating all kinds of guys that were wrong for me. shortly after i said hey ya know what, i should be young and stupid for a little while before i get old. 2 months later i met matt, and now he’s my husband 🙂 i think you just sort of have to sit back and let fate take it’s course. and,have fun in the mean time. i’m sure you do, but sometimes it’s that when we chase someone, we lose sight of the fact that someone could be chasing us. it was the case for me!

March 24, 2008

so does that mean you weigh 125 now? i used to be quite thin. i am actually a very strict vegetarian and always have been. i don’t eat breads either. my downfall is rice. uggh. but yeah i bet you’re right. 🙂 thanks for the note

March 24, 2008

it’s funny you should mention that because i was looking at a photo from high school when i decided my goal weight…107. i wouldn’t look disgustingly thin because i have really tiny bones already. so 107 should do just nicely. this fat business has got to stop

trust me, there are people out there that want to make the effort. give it time you will see