im on a roll
Two entries..two days in a row! this is unusual.
my day wasnt too bad today..i had conducting first. We didnt like..get on the podium today..we just had a test, and we’re looking at our next piece. Its going to be hard:~/
next i had wind ensemble…which also wasnt too bad..there was a lot of laughing today..some ridiculousness..but there is usually every rehearsal so its normal i guess lol.
next i had my lesson..it wasnt particularly good:~/ I started working on this one piece with him (brahms sonata) and i should be used to it by now..but whenever i start something new with him..he rips it apart. doesnt do nice things for me personally..but i know i need to hear it to make it better. I didnt cry today though after it was over, which is a step up from last week! wooo!
after all that i took a nap! it was fantasic:~) then came quintet rehearsal..which was also better than yesterday..thank god…i might have had to slap someone if it wasnt.
now..im just in a weird mood. Im feeling confused about..boys. Im not sure what i want in general. I hate being single..and have been for…7 months now. doesnt sound like a long time, but it sure feels like it. I have interest in a couple people, one is a little unrealistic at the moment, the other is just..hard for me to read. When i sit down and think about seriously dating someone right now..its hard. I hate the fact that ive developed some trust issues….thats something i never wanted to have because i have a hard enough time opening up to people as it is. I think i do want a boyfriend right now. ..not a fan of being single. Its just hard to believe boys now though…i know ive said this before..but they all say the same thing “im not like the rest” and then i believe them..and they turn out to be JUST like the rest. And i dont say that as like, im just being a girl and generalizing guys…i say it from experience. Im real naive when it comes to guys sometimes too..which doesnt help. idkkk..i dont want to say tooooo much on here …so maybe a fav’s only entry is called for…