long time no write..

soooo its been awhile.. its been busy at school. The last week and a half or so ive been sick, so that didnt help either.

Ive been feeling weird lately…and i felt the need to write. Im not sure what it is exactly. Ive been dyyyinngggg for attention..cant say im gettin a whole lot of it either.:~( its the little things….ive said it before i know…so i dont need to explain that…but its been bugging me a lot lately..:~/ and i dont wanna make a big deal about it..cause then i’ll be clingy. I feel like im being annoying though too…also why i dont wanna say anything…idk..i dont really wanna broadcast all this..so maybe i’ll detail in a fav’s entry…..

School still sucks…its not fun anymore..fredonia sucks the fun out of music i think…..at least its been that way this semester. I have no motivation, i just dont care lately, and that scares me. Usually im too afraid of failing to not care..but lately, thats not the case. I can’t seem to get out of this rut.

Ive not been happy with my body lately..i was good for a couple weeks in trying to go to the gym, but i feel like if i dont go everyday, its pointless. Thats probly not the case, but thats how it feels. And some days i just flat out dont have time. Its so hard not to gain weight here i think. Everything there is to eat here..is so bad for you. I also havent been at the gym lately because of the whole sick and dying thing..but im gonna start again. So between the shitty ass food, and no gym time….im a tank.

well i need to go practice real bad….leave me love:~/