its been awhile..

sry for no update..been busyyyy..

Sooo things have been better still..no nervous breakdowns, although i am predicting one by the end of the week. EVERYTHING is due or happening this thursday for some reason. I had a project in theory due this thurs, thank GOD he moved it to tuesday. WHEW! i just felt the weight..off my shoulders this morning when he said it. But..I have a test in theory still on thurs, and he gave us a practice exam to do..due thurs. I have to have this stupid Song memorized by tomorrow for voice class..and its in Italian…ugh. Its not too hard, just a pain in my ass..and ive said it b4 i’ll say it again WASTE OF MY TIME. I dont neeeeed voice class..theres plenty of other more important things the instrumentalists here have to worry about. hmmm what else..Ok..so maybe its not ALL on thurs..a lot of stuff is going on tomorrow too. I think i may have a quiz..or test..something in aural theory tomorrow..i have no idea..thats always good right?

I have my lesson tomorrow..which is stressful enough in itself. Although i did have a good lesson last week, he said a few positive things, which doesnt usually happen. Its not that hes always negative, he just, only seems to point out the things that need to be fixed..never comments on the things i am doing well. I wish he would..it makes a world of difference to hear it sometimes. Ive gotten used to taking the criticism though..last year my first few weeks of lessons here, i left them in tears cause i was like “omg..im really doing all this stuff wrong??” But, on the other hand, i also have to tell myself, that you must be doing something right, cause if you were hopeless..he wouldnt bother picking out the little stuff.

Next…i have to read an entire chapter by tomorrow for my foundations class..the chapters in this book are mammoth..yes thats right..mammoth..as in wooly mammoth..cause those things are huge. ha..h..a….ok..anywho..i have to have this thing read by tomorrow cause our group test is due monday..and half the ppl in my group are going home this weekend..soooo..but i also have a concert to go to tomorrow night at 8. I think my group is meeting at 530ish? wah:~(

I have to make my schedule tonight for next semester..or atleast have an idea about it. My advisor (who is also my clarinet teacher) sent us an email LAST NIGHT…telling us to sign up for advising for today. Im like, uh..yeah not happening. I have no time today. I’ll just talk to him tomorrow during my lesson. I really need a new advisor..he isnt so good at it. I need someone good..cause i cant afford to miss anything since i am double majoring. Im on a tight schedule with getting the neccesary (sp??) courses in..so i can graduate in a little over four years. I am already behind in music history..im going to have to double up next year or something. ugh..

Oh yeah..i have to make up my journal for voice class this week…i say make up..cause..yeah..i dont practice. it was due yesterday..but we didnt have class..so whatever i’ll give it to her tomorrow. I have to go make a copy of my other song to give to my piano accompanist for voice class too…gay….

On a relieving note..i found an accompanist for my jury!!! (aka..piano player to accompany me for my final playing stuff at the end of this semester..among other random things) She said she can do both the pieces i am doing. WHEW. i was getting nervous..shes charging me 80.00$$ for both pieces. Which seems like a lot..but when i was in highschool..and had to pay someone for like..all state auditions, i remember paying like 60 for one piece…one audition. So ..whatever..i dont care i just needed someone..and i think shes pretty good. I havent met her yet, but my clarinet teacher has heard of her..she studies with his wife or something.

well..i think thats it..i may have forgotten something..but i think thats all i have to do. It helps to get it out sometimes..plus, when i write it, that means i wont be bothering as many of you people by freaking out to you. so i am going to relax for like an hour..then off to dinner, and let the insanity begin!

and p.s. my boobs really effing hurt..i swear to god..they are going to be a whole cup size bigger from the swelling by the end of this week…damn you pms!