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so..due to the fact that i have like 8 miiilllion classes in a row i have to carry all my shiiaat in my bookbag all day. Its not doing nice things to my neck/shoulders. They hurt.:~(

Today i had conducting..im not used to the whole baton deal yet. Its like..everything she taught us about our hands..and perfecting position and whatnot..its like thrown out the window. I feel real akward with it..hoping it will come with time. Then it was on to trumpet..nothing earth shattering happened in there today..i just kno i need help lol..im gonna be terrible.

Yesterday, i didnt practice..i had my lesson though..so..it sort of counts. I dont feel bad though, ive decided im appointing one day a week, that i dont practice..in order to save my sanity. I think that day will be wednesdays..but we’ll see…if ive had a particularly rough few days, i will take one off. I need to, as i discovered during my little breakdown a few weeks ago, i need to walk away from it for a little while every now and then, or else, i will grow to hate music. need to find that happy medium, balance..whatever u want to call it. I did bring my rifle back so i could atleast spin if i want to..im definitely out of practice, but it will come back. I just dont know where to go to..spin. I cant really do it indoors unless im in a gym or something, cause..yeah..rifles flying up in the air..in small spaces……is DANGEROUS. hell..when ur in big spaces its still dangerous..couple black eyes and a concussion made me come to that conclusion. i really dont like doing it outside though..that whole wind factor. i dunno..it will sit in my trunk until i figure out where i can go i guess. And! i would love to find people on campus who would come spin with meeee..just mess around..seeing as how theres nothing like a color guard here in fredonia. Ive found out about a few people who used to do it..theres probly more people here who have done it than i think. So…if youre reading…and u are a guard freak like myself (or if you know one) send em my way!! cause i miss it..terribly:~( Along with the fact that i just like doing it, i miss the shape it kept me in..i mean my legs are still pretty beastly from the dancing/running and whatever, but not as solid as they used to be, i can just tell..my arms im sure have lost the little strength they had too lol. back muscles fading..ugh…and im not so sure how good my splits are anymore:~/ what was getting close to a center split..is im sure gone…side splits..not sure. ..alright i’ll stop bitching about my body..but i want to get it back!

well..i need food before i pass out..so i’ll write more later!