sanity vs. prosperity

Help!  I simply cannot decide what to do.. I really, really, really am considering asking for my Wyndham Lawn job back.  Like seriously contemplating calling on Monday, hopefully before they actually hire anyone else to take the job.

I am not comfortable in my job in buffalo, nor do i feel that i can really succeed and make a difference there.  I believe i was making a difference at Wyndham.  I was good at my job there,  really good with the kids.  I know that if i went back there using all the tools and professional development that i’ve gotten in Buffalo, that I could do an outstanding job.  In Buffalo, in this school building, i feel that nothing i do will ever be good enough.  And i, as a major seeker of approval and hater of being "in trouble" am having a huge problem with this.

If i do go back to Wyndham, there are some major drawbacks.. I would lose seniority and NEED to work this summer, I wouldn’t have health insurance for 90 days.. boo!!, I would be out of the NYS teachers retirement system, and I would have to pay for my health insurance.. 

but even with all that, I would have my sanity, I would be able to work and come home and BE with my girls.. not work more.  I would be able to do a great job there and actually be appreciated for it.

It’s a really hard decision to make.. i don’t know what to do, but right now i’m stressed out and working all the damn time!  and i don’t like it.. I actually don’t know if i could get my old job back, but i’m really beginning to think it’s worth a try.

me..