greatful, a touch of clothes, and appts.

So i’m feeling better now.. if i want to do things, we need money to do things.. so yeah.. it will all be ok.  I was just really disappointed.  I understand that we are lucky to work in the same place, with the same schedules, with oodles of paid time off.. (such is work in a school).. 

Anyway.. i’m just kind of hanging on until the last day of summer school.  It has been very long and very draining this year and learning that all the time i was looking forward to was "taken away" in a sense was very upsetting..

We talked though, and he was totally willing not to work if i really didnt’ want him to, but he really wants to support us. It actually is pretty amazing having someone that is willing to work his butt off to take care of me.  I never had that before.  Yes, Dave supported us or i should say made the most money, but there was always a "everyone has to work, why would you be able not to" type attitude. whereas charles, when i said that *I* would try to pick up a couple shifts working in the cottages, said "I’ll work, why would you?, you should be with your kids?"

it’s really like night & day.

Anyway, i totally bought another outfit for maya.. couldn’t help myself.. check this out!

and another pair of hair accessories, just plain pink bows since hair things were buy one get one 1/2 off.. 

anyway, why I’m posting is that these are from a company called Crazy 8.  Its actually a gymbo subsidiary (kind of like the Gap/old navy relationship). So anyway they have some really cute things for cheaper prices.. i’m still a gymbo addict, but i HAD.TO. HAVE this sweater jumper.. seriously, if it came in my size.. (ok so i was seriously considering buying the biggest size they have and trying it.. but i didnt..LOL)

ok away from clothes.. i’m trying to get the girls in bed.. they are currently brushing their teeth.. OH!! speaking of teeth, i made their first dentist appts!  *hangs head in shame*  I know, they are a bit old for that, and should have gone before.. yada, yada, yada..  but i finally made the apointments, so i’m congratulating myself, not chastising..so feel free to do the same.  

And yes, i had good dental care when i was growing up and want the same for my kids.  I just have been a bit lax about my own dental appts. since becoming an adult and i just never did it.. So now i am.. 

ok moving on..   I’m having a bit of a hard time with the fact that i must raise the girls on my own for the most part.. Dave gives what he can.. even though it should be more.. it’s supposed to be more.. more time, more attention, more money, more activities.. just … more.  And i have to come to terms with the fact that this is how it always will be.  I’m happy that he lasted as long as he did in our marriage, with our children, being relatively stable.. those years may and could very well be, the best years he ever has as an adult.  It just sucks so much for the girls.  On the other hand, i’m not raising them alone.. I have charles.  He treats them as if they are his own and helps me out in so many ways it’s insane.. for example he does the girls hair in the morning most days.. (just a ponytail, but man it helps) and I don’t even know if i’ve packed a lunch at all over the last few weeks of summer camp.. i heart him! lol.

ok now i’m just babbling and if you’ve gotten this far you deserve a treat.. go get yourself one!  goodnight!