and more stuff.

So i finally write an entry here and i get no notes… not a single, solitary smilie or internet hug.. wierd.  Either i have been gone so long that nobody is reading me anymore, or well, no one knew what to say.  Either way, i’m here again.  I like it here.

So, of course, there is more to every story that i started telling yesterday.  Dave was out of the hospital yesterday, called me and said "thank you and i’m sorry" and talked to the girls.  He also let me know that he somehow managed to keep his job.  yippee!

so life goes on.

or not.  Today i got a text from him saying that he "packed all my stuff and a moving out of sam’s"  Sam is his 20 year old girlfriend.. errr ex-girlfried.  I asked him why and where to.. well aparantly they broke up and he doesn’t know where to.  they will allow him to stay there until he finds a place to live but he says it’s "just too much, too painful" to do that.  soooooo, i guess he’s going to live in his Jeep.  not so sure what is happening,  i tried to talk some sense into him and asked his sister to do the same.  don’t know if it had any effect.

it’s hard knowing that he’s just going to continue to mess up his life over and over and over again and there is nothing anyone can do about it but him.. and he can’t always think straight.  ah well i guess.  now that we are divorced, he doesn’t have the power to do that to my life and my kids’ lives anymore, so i guess i’ve done the best thing i can for us all.  

i’m also looking into buying a house..  it all started when i saw this foreclosed house that was really nice and priced ridiculously low.  so i started looking into getting a mortgage.. all on my own!! yes Charles will help pay for the house since it will be our house, but strangely it’s giving me a bit of satisfaction actually being considered, on my own, for a home loan.  It might not happen for another year, but i do believe i will be purchasing a house in the not-so-distant future.  What’s even more crazy is that my credit is actually ok.. i’m just happy.. and, i admit it, a bit proud of myself.  

oh yeah and the houses i’m looking at are cheap with a capital C!  i want to get something cheap and we can work to fix it up as we go.. Charles knows how to do all that fix-y stuff and i’d love to help. so i think it will be great when it happens.. but i’m trying not to get too excited.  

overall i’m just happy it’s going to be able to happen for us!!! for me!  a house!!!  it’s an actual possibility.

oh yeah, not too excited.  i forgot.