busy summer, lots of info!

Well guys can i say that i’m really suprised that i’ve been neglecting this place as i have.  I used to be here every day without fail.. and now.. well i get a bit too tied up in GFand facebook, and to be honest, the time that i was on here when i was with dave was either times we weren’t hanging out together at night or times when he was working.  I don’t have that now. charles and i spend our time together if we are both here and most of the time.. we both are.. lol!

Lots has been going on this summer.  I’m teaching summer school.. it is a long, boring, torturous occurance that i’m hoping to avoid altogether in the not-so-distant summers of my future.  But for now, it is a necessary evil.  you know, necessary to eat, have electricity, etc.. so teach i do, or at least i try to because the students don’t feel so great and motivated to be there and actually do work either.

Dave’s other daughters were up.. my ex-stepdaughters, so to speak, last week.  It was the first time where i’ve actually felt as if i was missing out on something since the divorce, as if i had a replacement (dave’s gf) so to speak.  Maya and Paige spent from Monday morning until Thursday afternoon there with them and they all did fun stuff and had a ball.  I wasn’t deprived though.. since i got to spend all that wonderful alone time with Charles, although i did miss the girls.  I’ve never been apart from them that long.. 

ok, didn’t help but i saved ok, so i guess i’ll just go on..

After Dave’s daughter’s left, however, he had another episode.  this time he didn’t think he was god’s chosen one, however… this time.. well, he just decided to committ suicide.  Yes, that is right, kill himself.  He wrote a suicide note, overdosed on some type of pills, started feeling icky.. and .. well.. called ME!  ugh.  so yes, Charles, me and Maya paige and hailey, went over to his place as fast as we could.. were locked out, told by police they couldn’t do anything.. i started freaking out.. called him again.. he woke up from being passed out.. and opened the door..

then the police had him taken by ambulance (after we got the kids out of there) and to the hospital. he’s better now, got out of the psych ward today.. but well, supervised visitation is now on the agenda.  He just can’t be trusted with the kids alone.  I can’t take chances with them like that.

oh i know i’m going to drop that bomb and keep going.. yup i am. He isn’t going to keep doing this to my life.. i’m going to just try to live, and go on as normally as i can.  although it has hit me that while i can leave him and not deal with it (if he doesn’t choose to call me when he’s attempted suicide! ugh again!) my children can’t.  he’s going to keep doing this to them over and over and over again as they grow up.. that hurts. i wish i could prevent it, but i can’t , unless i take their daddy away altogether, and i won’t.

Charles and i on the other hand, are doing wonderfully!!! I am in love with an amazing man and i know for certain that he is in love with me.  we have the most amazing times together.. i can’t wait to marry him!!! (and i will.. someday.. soon i hope!)

I got a bike. it’s a cute purple beach cruiser with wide handlebars and big white-wall tires.. so nerdy.. yet so darn cool at the same time. I actually got it off of craigslist for $40, it was my birthday gift.  Charles has a bike, so now we go for bike rides together!! so nice.. and fun. I really totally dig the bike..

that is when i get to ride it, since it’s been raining almost every damn day this month and we haven’t had any summer type weather since the last week of JUNE! it’s really putting me in a sour mood.. 

not sure what else to say at this point, your head is probably spinning as it is.. so i’ll let ya off the hook.. 

love ya!
me