oops..

You know how they say you shouldn’t drink and dial?? well apparently you shouldn’t drink and od either.. i was really "over my limit" and stupid and emotional when i wrote that last entry..

NOTHING is wrong with Charles and I we are perfectly fine.. and yes, he treats maya and paige as if they were his.. I just get stupid and jealous about things at time.. especially when i’m drunk and irrational.  I made a mistake yesterday.  He went to mow a lawn and i went to have a couple drinks with my coworkers and he picked me up after.  i told him i wasn’t going to really drink.. only have two.. wellllllll FOUR drinks later i was pretty out of it..AND we had all four kids last night..  So he was pretty upset with me..

oh just for an answer.. C hasn’t filed for divorce yet for monitary reasons ONLY.. As a matter of fact, when his student loan money comes in this fall, he is going to get it started.. (at least, we think so right now.. )  He has COMPLETELY torn all ties with her.. well, as many as possible.. and i KNOW that he is 100% mine.. it just would be nice if he was legally mine too and not still tied to someone else… Doesn’t usually bother me too much since i know the reasons for it.. but well, as i said… drunk.

Nothing too much going on today, we are taking all 4 kids to Fantasy Island for the day.  It  should be a good time.. i’m off to see if the waterpark is open there today…. but (CRAP!) we have no bathing suits for Alyssa and Hailey.. ugh.. off to figure something out.

me