selfish.

That is Dave in one word.

SELFISH!

i am so sick of him i could puke.. he makes me so angry.  All he cares about is himself. and his 20 year old.. (yes you read that right 20 year old!!! he’ll be 38 next month) 

the girls are an afterthought.  thrown in whenever he has some extra time to spend with them.  and even then they get no alone time with him,  She is ALWAYS there too! 

I found out today that he hasn’ t slept at my grandparents’ house in 2 and a half weeks.  because he’s been sleeping at her house.. or wait, at her father’s house (who is in his early 40’s.. ).  So essentially, he’s living with her.  But does he ask  to have the girls for more than a few hours here and there?? NO!  never.  he doesn’t ask to take them overnight.. or even on any day other than his day off.  They simply are not a priority to him anymore.

How can anyone treat their children like that?!?

I told him if he doesn’t start to take some real responsibility for them then he won’t see them.  They are not accessories to take off "the shelf" twice a week and then put back on it and do whatever you want.  They just arent’.  That is NOT parenting.  I told him that he would have to take me to court for visitation.

his answer?

well i won’t see them then and it will be YOUR fault!  the girls will know when they grow up who the nicer person is..

are you serious?? you wouldn’t even fight to see your children!?  wtf!?  are they not even important to you. I would trudge through a building burning for my kids.. die for them in a heartbeat.  RUN to the courthouse and wait 938490234 hours for it to open if anyone tried to take my children.. but him..?? it’s an OH WELL.. they will know it’s YOUR fault, i didn’t see them..

UGH!!! i really am starting to hate him. 

oh and he says he told Sam (the 20 year old) about what he went through.. about how i was so mean to him all the time and drove him to being insane… EXCUSE ME?!?!? now your illness is MY fault too?  He takes absolutely no accountability for anything!  I simply cannot stand him..

I simply don’t know what to do.  A HUGE part of me wants to tell him to just forget it.. I will raise the girls.  After all what benefit is he giving them anyway.  Showing them this ridiculous, innappropriate relationship with a young girl who honestly, has a TON of growing to do to get her own life right.  Another part of me thinks that they need to see their dad.. what am i going to do guys? anyone else have a similar "baby daddy" situation?

oh and the icing on the cake.  He brought her with him to drop the girls off today!?  He knows i don’t like her around my kids and he brings her to shove it in my face..

ugh.. really i know i shouldn’t hate him this much but i’m seriously shaking i’m so mad!