overwhelmed.*

Well, if I thought I was overwhelmed before, I was wrong.  NOW I am officially overwhelmed..

Before I get into that, an update on Dave’s grandma.  He said that he got to the hospital and got to see/talk to her.  She asked how the girls and I were, how sweet.  After, his stepmother stayed so that he and his father could go get some rest.  Well they received a call around 2:30am that they had better head back to the hospital.  He called me at 6:30 am to tell me this is definitely it, but she was still hanging on.  It’s almost 9 and I haven’t heard anything yet.  I also, wanted to say thank you,  all your thoughts and prayers are appreciated.

OK now back to being overwhelmed.  I feel a bit selfish for saying this, but this couldn’t happen at a worse time.  Today, Dave and I were supposed to work together to get alot of packing done. now, no help for me.. =(.. and if she does pass away, we are going to have a week filled with constant trips to Olean, and trying to get all our stuff ready for our move in exactly 1 week and 1 day!  this is going to be one wild week..

ok so now i feel bad.  obviously dave is upset now, but so am I.  completely overwhelmed!!!!! too much to do!! but he just called and he made me sooooo angry!  I should be more understanding, i know, but i tend to deal with these things by just ignoring them.. it works for me.  Not for my husband, i should understand that, but i don’t.   i just want him to come home and help me.. completely selfish, I know.. i really need to work on that.. 

i just don’t want to deal with this right now! i seldom plan things for us to do.  usually it’s just a kind of "well, what are we going to do today?" kind of thing around here.

well this week, I planned, I organized our time.  I was going to have us ready to move, and still have some relaxing time for us too.  A day at the beach.  My aunt rented a condo on the beach for the week and we were supposed to go spend the day there on Tuesday!  A much needed, fun, break from all the moving crap that was forced upon us.  Now this.. i just need a break here. 

unfortunately I took it out on dave a bit.  He just seems oblivious to all the things that need done here too… we live about 2 hours away from his family.  I don’t know how we are possibly going to be ready to move, plus attend a wake (he is insisting that we have to go) and the funeral.  I understand the funeral, but the wake?, we don’t live near there and we don’t have the money and certainly not the time to stay.  but we will it seems, because that is what he wants. 

He seems to think that because we have a lot of people coming to  help us move that it will be fine..but they are coming to help us MOVE, not pack..

jeez, i have to go.. pack.. blah!  right now i just feel like curling up in my bed and reading a book to escape all this.

ugh!