Put-in-Bay 08

What is it about me and bringing life-size souvenir boyfriends home from Put-in-Bay? That’s two in a row. And his name is Max. I might be getting ahead of myself completely but wow. He’s awesome and we spent close to 4 1/2 hours talking at the Roundhouse and then at the patio in front of our hotel. When he saw me stand up for the first time he said “Wow! You’re adorable!!” and hugged me. Butterflies already? Yeah kind of. He already called and we’re going on our first proper date this Saturday. (!!!) First good thing since Emmett (who is still around, but friends strictly for now – which honestly works for me). We nearly got back together probably 10 times but we were devastated by breaking up and got scared every time back together started coming back into it. It’s good though! Max is awesome. And his name is Max which is fabulous. And he wears snobby Versace glasses and I do that too. He cuddled me and kissed my forehead last night. We weren’t drunk. Then he told me he thought he would be my boyfriend in no time. I think he will be too.

I’m kind of a happy girl right now.

I left to go on this trip in a horrible state of mind.

Most of you don’t know what the last few months have been like because I’ve been absent. In a nutshell here are my last 6 months. The break up with Emmett (I’m still not quite sure how I forced myself to get over that but I have), got fired from job, getting new job within 6 days that has recently presented much drama, student loan situation, sister is pregnant. But now! Cut 8 inches off of hair and dyed it back to red – it was very light blonde (I love Randi!), signed up to start taking court reporting classes (at the same college I now work for), started working out 4 times a week and watching my diet, started fostering for Rainbow again.

I really wasn’t sure I was going to make it out of 2008 at all. The walls felt like they were starting to cave in on me.

I love hope. I love my girls. I loved gazing at the stars while he couldn’t stop gazing at me. I loved meeting tons of random people and letting loose for a few nights.

I’m happy and I really needed to find that again – even if it’s only the beginnings of it. Every long journey starts with a single step right?