Love till the end??

Why bother with it. Love only hurts you in the end, so why love to the end?

I love her with every ounce I have to give to show her I am deserving of what she has to offer and vice versa.

Yet some how, some way I am afraid to be with her.

I am with her now for the time being, but I feel as if the rides about to be over before it even started.

Not from the lack of trying or because something happen, but its doubts and fears.

How could the one who did not want the barriers I put up now have doubts about us now?

I know she is as scared as I am and she says she wants us to work as much as I do, but how does it end up like this?

I want to prove to her that I am just as worthy as the rest but I do not want to drive her away doing it.

Sometimes things should just be not as difficult as they are.

There is not a point I can think of for everyone to struggle so hard to have love.

Easier for others sure, but hell for everyone else.

You can take this how ever you want it but I’m just ranting after a talk with my girlfriend and its not promising from

my point of view.

I will let this run its course as I should and not force anything with this because of this one thing that we all know,

"If it is meant to be then its meant to be. However if its not, there is other fish in the sea."

I guess we all look at it differently when its someone that makes the most meaningless day seem worth it just by looking

into their eyes.

I hope I have not done what I have in the past few months for nothing, I would not be able to handle not having her.

I could not be happy if I was not what she wanted even though I would be happy for her if she was

happy with someone else, but I could not be around for her when she needs me the most.

My hurt would show every time I would see her and she would see it as well.

I do not want to bring sadness in her life by seeing me crushed.

I hate knowing that this could be the end of my world as she started hers……………….