October 11, 2007

Whats Unfair!!!!???

Aint that about some shite! Yall who read this what is unfair about my entry called " My own personal hell"?

I cant get it out of this person how unfair it is. Im just stating an obvious fact!

The thing bout this whole thing is i could post some stuff and let you all judge whats fair and whats not.. But it will end up someone say9ing i did wrong and what not and i shouldnt have done this or that blah blah blah or it will be said i "altered" things and its not tru! But i know different! So instead ill let you all know whats up and you judge for yourself cuz im sure whart ever i say or do now aint gunna mean shite cuz she told me good bye so i doubt she even reads it! But i am Skug and she is HER! Names been changed to protect her so she cant bitch at me for it! and took out anything that might "expose" her she remains incognito

Skug (10/12/2007 2:55:23 PM): cvome stroke my ego some more
HER (10/12/2007 2:55:55 PM): sweet and charming Brad darling you don’t need your ego stroked *winks*
Skug (10/12/2007 2:57:33 PM): Then
Skug (10/12/2007 2:57:44 PM): What shall be stroked if not my ego?
HER(10/12/2007 2:58:46 PM): bad Brad!
Skug (10/12/2007 2:59:05 PM): oh
Skug (10/12/2007 2:59:10 PM): Go
Skug (10/12/2007 2:59:13 PM): Gosh*
Skug (10/12/2007 2:59:16 PM): im sorry
HER (10/12/2007 2:59:21 PM): lol
Skug (10/12/2007 3:00:22 PM): wait a min
Skug (10/12/2007 3:00:24 PM): no im not
HER (10/12/2007 3:00:45 PM): *smiles *
HER (10/12/2007 3:00:48 PM): you’re not?
Skug (10/12/2007 3:03:10 PM): nope
Skug (10/12/2007 3:03:13 PM): I am me lol
Skug (10/12/2007 3:03:28 PM): and if we aint strokin egos lol i wanna know what i have to be prepared for
HER (10/12/2007 3:04:10 PM): well maybe I should stroke your ego then
Skug (10/12/2007 3:04:25 PM): oh damn
HER (10/12/2007 3:05:13 PM): *gets out a pen* Now where should I write "ego"?
Skug (10/12/2007 3:05:52 PM): ahhh
Skug (10/12/2007 3:05:56 PM): your play on words
Skug (10/12/2007 3:05:59 PM): you got me
HER (10/12/2007 3:08:15 PM): I need someone to hold me while I sleep..
Skug (10/12/2007 3:08:50 PM): well i just woke upso no sleeping for me
Skug (10/12/2007 3:09:04 PM): besodes
Skug (10/12/2007 3:09:10 PM): im not a goodf laying down prtner
Skug (10/12/2007 3:09:15 PM): my hands wonder around
HER (10/12/2007 3:44:34 PM): things got a little crazy here
HER (10/12/2007 3:44:40 PM): doesn’t mean I don’t want to talk to you
Skug (10/12/2007 3:44:48 PM): lol i guessed that
HER (10/12/2007 3:46:27 PM): well you
HER(10/12/2007 3:46:31 PM): are a smart cookie
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:00 PM): aw
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:05 PM): im just a lil heathen
HER(10/12/2007 3:47:20 PM): yeah that too
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:35 PM): but
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:38 PM): u like it
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:39 PM): so
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:45 PM): why top
Skug (10/12/2007 3:47:52 PM): stop*
HER (10/12/2007 3:55:01 PM): sorry
Skug (10/12/2007 3:55:10 PM): lol
Skug (10/12/2007 3:55:13 PM): its ok
Skug (10/12/2007 3:55:32 PM): you dont have to talk to me apparently yahoo dont like me talking to you
HER (10/12/2007 3:55:50 PM): this is why I am not normally on during the day
HER (10/12/2007 3:56:00 PM): because I have a million and one distractions and get frustrated
Skug (10/12/2007 3:56:06 PM): lol
Skug (10/12/2007 3:56:11 PM): dont be
HER(10/12/2007 3:58:58 PM): I thought that my rising sign is Leo was interesting
Skug (10/12/2007 4:01:10 PM): hmmmm
Skug (10/12/2007 4:02:11 PM): that is interesting
HER (10/12/2007 4:30:51 PM): mwahs
Skug (10/12/2007 4:30:58 PM): leaving me?
HER (10/12/2007 4:31:06 PM): I think I am going to go lay down.. maybe I will see you tonight
Skug (10/12/2007 4:31:13 PM): maybe
HER (10/12/2007 4:31:20 PM): just going to try to rest a little I wouldn’t say leaving
HER (10/12/2007 4:31:23 PM): maybe?
HER (10/12/2007 4:31:25 PM): you got a hot date?
Skug (10/12/2007 4:32:18 PM): er
Skug (10/12/2007 4:32:19 PM): no
Skug (10/12/2007 4:32:25 PM): not in this life time
HER (10/12/2007 4:32:34 PM): no?
HER(10/12/2007 4:32:50 PM): don’t be so haste my dear.. it could someday happen
Skug (10/12/2007 4:32:59 PM): hahaha
Skug (10/12/2007 4:33:00 PM): ya
Skug (10/12/2007 4:33:02 PM): someday
Skug (10/12/2007 4:33:04 PM): some time
HER (10/12/2007 4:33:29 PM): never know I could end up single again still
Skug (10/12/2007 4:33:39 PM): Ahh
HER (10/12/2007 4:33:43 PM): especially with the way things are going
Skug (10/12/2007 4:33:48 PM): but then leaves the all important question
HER (10/12/2007 4:33:57 PM): but then again maybe you wouldn’t consider me a hot date anyway
Skug (10/12/2007 4:34:12 PM):
HER(10/12/2007 4:40:38 PM): what question?
Skug (10/12/2007 4:41:25 PM): you become single again will one be able to fight the urges to be toucvhed and held till one was able to provied said other with such a comnfort?
HER (10/12/2007 4:42:05 PM): good question
Skug (10/12/2007 4:42:57 PM): guess
Skug (10/12/2007 4:43:10 PM): thats something that would have to wait if said other comes single ahgain
HER (10/12/2007 4:44:01 PM): that’s true enough
HER (10/12/2007 4:44:09 PM): so why would you not be on later?
Skug (10/12/2007 4:44:41 PM): lol you know better
Skug (10/12/2007 4:44:54 PM): no job nbo car so where else would i be lol
HER (10/12/2007 4:45:22 PM): ok let me take a nap then so you wont be bored
Skug (10/12/2007 4:46:06 PM): lol
Skug (10/12/2007 4:46:14 PM): so ill be bored now and not later lol
Skug (10/12/2007 4:46:18 PM): go nap babe
Skug (10/12/2007 4:46:23 PM): no dreams of me
HER (10/12/2007 4:46:33 PM): *smiles* no promises
HER (10/12/2007 8:21:14 PM): hey hon
Skug (10/12/2007 8:21:21 PM): wassup babe
HER (10/12/2007 8:26:28 PM): nothing much
HER (10/12/2007 8:26:32 PM): feel a little better
Skug (10/12/2007 8:26:38 PM): thats a good thing
HER (10/12/2007 8:27:04 PM): mm hmm
HER(10/12/2007 8:28:31 PM): *yawns and stretches*
HER(10/12/2007 8:28:34 PM): so what did you do?
Skug (10/12/2007 8:28:41 PM): sat here
HER (10/12/2007 8:28:51 PM): daydreaming??
Skug (10/12/2007 8:29:19 PM): as usual yea
HER(10/12/2007 8:29:51 PM): anything interesting?
Skug (10/12/2007 8:30:21 PM): oh you know
Skug (10/12/2007 8:30:26 PM): just fantasy things
HER(10/12/2007 8:31:40 PM): having a date with a hot mama later one of them? *winks*
Skug (10/12/2007 8:34:45 PM): eh
Skug (10/12/2007 8:34:53 PM): i dunna how i did it tho
Skug (10/12/2007 8:35:02 PM): she was WAY outta mmy leafgue
HER (10/12/2007 8:35:28 PM): tell me about her
Skug (10/12/2007 8:36:21 PM): oh you know
Skug (10/12/2007 8:36:23 PM): about 5’11
Skug (10/12/2007 8:36:28 PM): shapley
Skug (10/12/2007 8

:36:38 PM): pure hotness cuz im into the glmazons
HER (10/12/2007 8:37:39 PM): eh she sounds ok
Skug (10/12/2007 8:37:49 PM): you have no idea
Skug (10/12/2007 8:37:53 PM): she is hard on her self
Skug (10/12/2007 8:38:01 PM): but im always there telling her different
HER(10/12/2007 8:38:41 PM): what does she do?
Skug (10/12/2007 8:40:17 PM): she is always down on herself
Skug (10/12/2007 8:40:23 PM): saying she aint this great person
HER (10/12/2007 8:40:26 PM): no I mean for a living
Skug (10/12/2007 8:40:32 PM): ahhh
Skug (10/12/2007 8:40:34 PM): school
Skug (10/12/2007 8:40:36 PM): and a mom
HER (10/12/2007 8:42:46 PM): well I can’t find any fault there.. I am too
Skug (10/12/2007 8:45:17 PM): wow
Skug (10/12/2007 8:45:21 PM): i had no idea
HER (10/12/2007 8:45:41 PM): oh come on now.. you knew that
HER (10/12/2007 8:45:43 PM): *winks*
Skug (10/12/2007 8:45:56 PM): oh musta slipped my feeble mind
HER (10/12/2007 8:46:10 PM): honey there isn’t anything feeble about you
Skug (10/12/2007 8:46:19 PM): you would be amazede
HER(10/12/2007 8:46:36 PM): so would you
Skug (10/12/2007 8:46:46 PM): ah u give me to much credit
HER (10/12/2007 8:46:54 PM): you don’t give me enough
Skug (10/12/2007 8:47:04 PM):
Skug (10/12/2007 8:47:10 PM): i do too
HER (10/12/2007 8:47:19 PM): then you should know how I think about you
Skug (10/12/2007 8:47:22 PM): im just limited
Skug (10/12/2007 8:47:51 PM): i can only do so much after that its all in ones hands
HER (10/12/2007 8:48:49 PM): you just need a good woman to stand beside you
Skug (10/12/2007 8:49:11 PM): Im working on it but
Skug (10/12/2007 8:49:14 PM): aga9in
Skug (10/12/2007 8:49:16 PM): im limited
HER (10/12/2007 8:49:33 PM): it will happen for you
HER(10/12/2007 8:49:44 PM): and when it does I am sure on some level I will be jealous
Skug (10/12/2007 8:50:02 PM): of yourself woew thats impressive
HER (10/12/2007 8:50:29 PM): no
HER (10/12/2007 8:50:30 PM): lol
HER (10/12/2007 8:50:59 PM): I won’t ever do long distance again.. hurts too much
Skug (10/12/2007 8:51:22 PM): Then for that reason Im going no where fast
Skug (10/12/2007 8:51:33 PM): i dont like talking to you when your sleepy
Skug (10/12/2007 8:51:52 PM): u get ones hopes up then when u rest and come back
Skug (10/12/2007 8:51:56 PM): SMASH!!!!
HER (10/12/2007 8:53:03 PM): I am sorry you feel that way.. it doesn’t change how I feel or that I am still attracted to you but you honestly think a relationship can work with hundreds of miles between two people?
Skug (10/12/2007 8:53:30 PM): hmmmm
Skug (10/12/2007 8:53:37 PM): silly question
HER(10/12/2007 8:53:50 PM): I am but a silly girl
Skug (10/12/2007 8:53:53 PM): lol
Skug (10/12/2007 8:54:03 PM): if i didnt think it wouldnt i wouldnt be trying so damn hard lol
Skug (10/12/2007 8:54:07 PM): But
Skug (10/12/2007 8:54:11 PM): Answer me this
Skug (10/12/2007 8:55:52 PM): Whats the use of having a physical relationship if there is not some kind of mental correlation to the relationship? Dont you think that when a mind and spirit coincide its alot better?
Skug (10/12/2007 8:56:17 PM): i would rather have those 2 things than a physical one anytime thats just an added bonus
Skug (10/12/2007 8:56:27 PM): i know one needs the sense of touch
Skug (10/12/2007 8:56:37 PM): but woith out the other two its rather pointless
Skug (10/12/2007 8:58:07 PM): The physical aspect of relationships should be an award not a given
HER(10/12/2007 8:59:21 PM): my problem with distance is that it takes away a lot of what you can share together, meals, movies, walks, kisses, hugs, experiences, holding someone when they cry, seeing their face when you wake up
Skug (10/12/2007 9:00:39 PM): i see 75% of that riddles with physicaliity
Skug (10/12/2007 9:01:35 PM): but thats just me and my outrageousness
HER (10/12/2007 9:01:52 PM): its obvious that not all of a relationship is physical
HER(10/12/2007 9:02:24 PM): but the day to day ness of one has a lot to do with it
Skug (10/12/2007 9:03:27 PM): i guess its all just a hopeless cause and im doing what i do for nothing becuase i cant touch ya or nothing id rather working on it mentally than physically for that way when the physical part happens it wont be all for a lost cause im just tired of having the physical part and not have anything mentally but i guess thats just not enuff for some and is a lost cause
HER(10/12/2007 9:04:19 PM): I have never been with someone I didn’t have some kind of mental connection to.. that is part of the way I am attracted to someone
Skug (10/12/2007 9:04:42 PM): never said u ddint
Skug (10/12/2007 9:05:24 PM): but one thing destroys it all for some and nothing can cure that tis a sad moment….. i think imma write god i wish i could get out of this rut
HER (10/12/2007 9:06:18 PM): it is all obsolete at this moment anyway
Skug (10/12/2007 9:06:29 PM): eh as u say
HER (10/12/2007 9:07:26 PM): yep I am just a bitch
Skug (10/12/2007 9:08:36 PM): What ever floats your boat for anything i say will never change your prospects on things im tired of the back and forth tit for tat as some may say you think one way and im off in the complete opposite but its never to become a common ground and its brain boggling
HER (10/12/2007 9:10:00 PM): ok ok you win I admit it I am vainly in love with myself, I think I am a goddess actually
Skug (10/12/2007 9:10:22 PM): where in the blue furry hell did you gwet that from what i said lol
HER(10/12/2007 9:10:43 PM): no its a real confession
Skug (10/12/2007 9:10:52 PM): wow now im in a confessional
Skug (10/12/2007 9:11:01 PM): oh strangly erotic
Skug (10/12/2007 9:11:08 PM):
HER (10/12/2007 9:11:28 PM): I also think I know everything
Skug (10/12/2007 9:12:41 PM): Yet i think your blinded by misperseptions provided to you
Skug (10/12/2007 9:12:48 PM):
Skug (10/12/2007 9:12:54 PM):
HER(10/12/2007 9:13:31 PM): it really doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks of me. I know I have been through the worst of my life already
Skug (10/12/2007 9:14:35 PM): so if we are extracting things from what people say then from that i get you dont care what i think….
HER(10/12/2007 9:15:13 PM): I appreciate what you think but it doesn’t change how I feel about myself
HER (10/12/2007 9:16:06 PM): it wasn’t so long ago you told me I am just like the others…
HER(10/12/2007 9:16:47 PM): if I believed that I would have been incredibly depressed
Skug (10/12/2007 9:16:49 PM):
HER (10/12/2007 9:17:09 PM): people say things they don’t mean all the time
Skug (10/12/2007 9:18:06 PM): god im such a confused little boy my brain hurts
HER (10/12/2007 9:18:23 PM): I sometimes feel like I am bitchy when I talk to you because I know that I hurt you or things don’t work out because I believe differently about distance
Skug (10/12/2007 9:19:22 PM): Fuck distance thats a triffle ordeal lol that is a varible that can be controlled and change yet its not good enough
HER (10/12/2007 9:19:36 PM): change it then we’ll talk
Skug (10/12/2007 9:20:29 PM): so instead i sit by with nothing to do but watch you go thruogh shit cuz some people are idiots when you and i both know that ……… eh why doi try its pointless
HER (10/12/2007 9:22:22 PM): at least I still act sane these days…
Skug (10/12/2007 9:23:29 PM): thats what i wanted
HER (10/12/2007 9:23:51 PM): that?
HER(10/12/2007 9:24:09 PM): it shows up as a red x on my screen
Skug (10/12/2007 9:24:20 PM): hmmm
Skug (10/12/2007 9:24:28 PM): its a guy being punched in the face
HER(10/12/2007 9:24:36 PM): none of my emoticons are working
HER (10/12/2007 9:25:17 PM): *sighs*
Skug (10/12/2007 9:33:31 PM): wow aint that some stuff 5 notes in like 2 mins
Skug (10/12/2007 9:35:03 PM): And whats unfair?
HER(10/12/2007 9:41:10 PM): It was all hypothetical at this time anyway
Skug (10/12/2007 9:42:37 PM): No its nothing cuz you wont let it be n e thing cuz you wont let me try regardless of any out come you said it yourself
HER (10/12/2007 9:55:54 PM): Brad you take it however you want to.. I want to be with someone not talk about it.. I want to share my life with someone and it takes getting to know them .. yes a certain amount of that can be online but I have been meeting people and having relationships over the internet for something like 13 to 14 years I think I know what works for me
Skug (10/12/2007 9:56:25 PM): you know i told you this before yet u never listen to me
Skug (10/12/2007 9:56:35 PM): What ever Floats your boat
Skug (10/12/2007 9:56:59 PM): Go im tired of trying and ive done nothing but be good to you and yet this is what i get
Skug (10/12/2007 9:57:19 PM): you go from one extreme to another and im the one that catches the back fire
Skug (10/12/2007 9:57:26 PM): i9m not doing it n e more
HER (10/12/2007 9:57:31 PM): ok
HER (10/12/2007 9:57:41 PM): have a good life and I hope you find happiness
Skug (10/12/2007 9:57:49 PM): you will one day realize i am worth the wait and you couldnt try so
Skug (10/12/2007 9:58:05 PM): i did nothing yet did it all

Did i miss something here did i read it wrong Or was i being lead one way and yanked right back the opposite direction?? Someone give me insight about this???