wedding thoughts

I’m getting married!  Its finally setting into my head that its really going to happen.

I’m going to be his wife, i’m going to have a husband. I love it.

I’m starting to get so excited about the wedding. My mother is helping to push that excitement trying to turn it into a real wedding rather then just jeans and the courthouse. She wants to buy me a dress, not a full on wedding gown but a nice bridesmaid style dress. Shes talking about flowers for me to carry. Two simple things but it makes me feel like a bride.

I love him so much and i feel so lucky to get to spend the rest of my life with him. He’s wonderful. I know there will be tough times and rough spots but we can work thru it together.

We talked about it and have decided to put the moving part on hold for now until we know for sure if his son is going to stay with us. He doesnt want to set up a room for him and buy a bed and things and then have him taken away and always have that reminder. So we are just going to wait and see what happens with the custody before we figure out where to move. which is a huge burden off my shoulders for now i dont have to stress bout apartments. I can get wrapped up in wedding thoughts.

We ordered the rings on Wed, well we ordered his and mine was having a problem so she was going to retry it the following day. I wasnt very happy with the whole experience i felt guilty for choosing a more expensive ring then what i had wanted to start with. So i called back and told her i wanted to step back down to the  1/4C, i’m sure she wasnt too happy with that but it will be more affordable, many not as shiny but thats okay. So i have to go back in hopefully tomorrow and sign for mine to be sent to be resized since they had one of the smaller carats in store. I feel better about it now.

My biggest issue now is how do i get M to dress up. He HATES dressing up and doesnt really have the clothes but i was hoping his mother woud help him with that, take him to go get a suit, at least dress pants/shirt and jacket is all i’m really looking for no need for a tux. If i am dressing up and making it something special i want him to do the same thing.

I need to find someplace upscale but normal food to go have dinner at with our mothers(again hoping they’ll pay). I dont want it to be the normal 99 or fridays or something like that. Someplace we can wear our dress clothes to and wont be way outta place but that serves normal food not superfine menus.

Still another question….I’d like to get a hotel room for the evening. My mother will be staying in the small apartment with us to help save money on her part, i dont want to make her stay in a hotel but maybe she can watch Jr and we can go to a bed&breakfast something just for us away from messy home.

He probably thinks i’m making too much outta it, but i’m trying to find the most important parts of a full scale weddin and make sure i at least have a few touches i want.

I looked up my fathers name on google and it pulled up a couple fairly recent photos of him and step mom on hunting trips. He barely looks like the person i remember. I dont have his email anymore i wanted to at least tell him i’m getting married. I’m not sure how to speak to him. The pictures i saw of him he is super skinny, i worry that he is sick or has cancer or something he doesnt look well to me. Happy yes but not healthy. I sent my cousin a msg on myspace maybe i can inquire into his weight with her without anyone knowing. Maybe he has just gotten REALLY healthy lost weight and is outdoors all the time and is super active. I just dont know know if the person i remember and saw are even the same. (not lookalike just demeanor)

If ya get married at the courthouse can you do a unity candle/sand thing? How much of a wedding will the JP really give you?  Should i get some sort of favors for the couple ppl that are coming?  See all of those things would make it more wedding less quicky courthouse.  I need to call the towns office and see what is allowed, set up an appt to talk to someone or something to figure out what can/cant be done plus figure out which dates they marry couples on. I’m hoping for the 20th but i need to find out more info from them

The boys been sick the past few days and we havevnt gotten much done. He’s got a all over fever now for 3days hopefully tomorrow he starts feeling better. He went for shots on tuesday for h1n1 and flu but still ended up sick. I hope we get to keep him forever.

I need to figure out all the steps required in order to change my name as well. I know i gotta get a new SSC with the name and then license and then change it will CC and other bills i read u had to change so your credit score will show up correctly.

I’m tired as hell, ppl sick at work too covering shifts sucks when i wanna be home, but ya do what ya gotta.

I want to marry him because…..i never want to be a day apart, to stand together and share everything with one another. I want the honor of being annoyed with him and yell and smile and make love and create a family.

He is interlaced into my soul.