love letter

I’m not sure whats going to happen or how we will turn out. Yet there are some things i wanted you to know. You can disagree but this is what i feel and see. You have changed my life and taught me so much. Somewhere lost in the text of our first chats of our meetings. I began to trust you and i let you in. With all  your patience you climbed over the walls i had so firmly in place. I would push you away and brush you off yet you remained just out of reach. I took a chance and needed you one day. I needed someone to make everything else alright. And you were right there turning my tears into smiles. I had no idea i was looking for a way out a reason to move past that point i had become stuck in. Yet you knew i just needed someone to count on and you were that person. You were missing something in an uncertain place yourself. The best thing you did was not resecueing me but letting me decided, choose, how to help myself. You were teaching me right from the very start. I think your amazing. Your view of life is so simple, all you try to be is happy. Its so inspiring to me to know i could have that too and you’ve changed how to see happiness. You have a strong soul and a beautiful face. Wonderful memories of passion so quick and too overwhelming to ignore. I’ve never blushed so easily or had other people noticed i looked so in love. Each day grateful for what i hold in my heart, a piece of yours. And i’ll teasure that long after we’re done. You let me love you and let me into your life. I’ve never given a  kiss that made the rest of mind unable to funtion. I’ve been completely wrapped up, embraced, blanketed by your smile. Tasting perfection i think we are great together. You given me confidence and hope that i’m worth loving worth trying for. I don’t know where you life will go i hope you remember how much i love you. I’d give up mine so you could get back your smile.  You mean too much to me to be selfish and try and keep you all to myself. I just want you to be happy, to not have this weight on your mind everyday. You’re the best love, man, friend i could dream of, i wouldnt change anything even if i could. What if we are meant to be together, what if this is as perfect as it will ever be for you and i.  I didnt know what was getting into, the drama, but its worth to me. When you would stand across from me on the line i paid more attention to your words then the boxes. You told me about your newborn son, the pride and love in your voice. At the time i had no idea i would come to love him too.  Thank you for everything you given me. I want you to know if you ever need someone to care, i will be there.

I care more deeply
and love more bravely
because you, M
deserve it