u left

how quickly old habbits return
when life feels too much like the past
swimming in thoughts
racing in my head
rocking back and forth
with nothing in sight
tear lined cheeks
unable to pindown anything
just a bunch of scattered memories
causing my body to feel weighed down
for seven years i’ve cried with my blade
and too fucking familar not to want
it hurts and i cant turn if off
I feel like im disconnected, floating
walls are missing I’m in space
and your arms wont bring me any relief
i am this because i have no self
without a love next to me
i’ve been thru it all before
and yes its worth it
don’t blame yourself if you dont
like what you are seeing
it just all hurts
and i know im the only one
who can let it go