december’s overview
Call… I’m hoping my phone will ring soon and he will say he is on his way back to me. Home and i catch him calling here home and it makes me smile.
Okay anyway..back it up a bit…
This month was crazy and stressful and wonderful. I called off of work more this month then i have the whole time i’ve worked for target. And no i’m not proud of that fact, just stressed out unsure if this is what i wanna do. I have even done two no call, no show… yikes..yeah i know that is bad. Found out how stubborn i can be also, please dont tell me what to do, even if it is the right thing i have to do it on my own. I dont know whats going to happen with work if i’m gonna stay with the company or seek out something else. I just cant go on how it is with christmas over now i hope things get better.
Went looking for cars with M and ended up going back to the Honda dealership myself. It was just something i needed to do on my own i think. Test drove this beautiful black accord, its perfect. But i was nervous with the idea of signing my life over with payments. Yet i wanted that car.
My mom came for a few days middle of Dec, she stayed in a hotel as to avoid the weirdness of her being here with Derek and his girl also sharing this apartment. So i paid for her to bunk in a hotel, it was nice seeing her she came up to help me with the car, but ended up i needed my BC to get my ct liences so she called jen and found it and mailed it out. It was a quick visit for her.
On Dec 14th, i got my car. 2003 Honda Accord and i love it. M went with me to sign the paperwork i feel so adult headed in the right direction. I’ll be paying forever on it, but i need my own car and i wanted something newer and that will last a long time. What a huge since of freedom i have now. I can come and go as i please. Derek can too now, without worring bout me needing his car. I didnt even tell Derek till i drove it home, he was shocked i think. I’ll always remember buying my first car and M was there with me.
So with a car i’m seeing M even more, driving to pick him up..and he is coming here even more now too. I’m getting sucked into the hobby shop world. Learning my way around town even more now, not afraid of the city. M got me a RC Electric truck of xmas…its a fun toy. Thank you!
And with my new wheels i was able to go see my family for the holiday. I drove up on the 23rd evening and stayed thru christmas. My mom helped me finish my xmas shopping on the 24th, i just didnt get the time..chance to find what i wanted i felt soooo unprepared for christmas this year. I just keep on buying stuff for myself! I went out one evening looking for christmas and wanted to check out TVs for myself, seeing as how i didnt have one in my bedroom now. (did i mention, derek and i are going to stay living here we moved our stuff so we each have our own bedrooms, live as roommates now) So i ended up getting a 26" widescreen LCD HD tv…pricey..yes it was..hehe. It was good seeing my family, a bit odd going alone though. I missed M so much while i was gone sent tons of txt msgs back and forth. I got back home on the 25th in the evening he came over to see me and we had to work that night/morning at 3am. This past week he’s been here a lot. His son went with his mom to visit family in the south, so its been an empty place for M so he’s been staying here. I left him sleeping here and went to work, he didnt have to be in till 11, i left him my house key.. and in the morning he came home (here) before me and waited for me. Tug on my heart. His ex and kids have moved to a new apartment, so the place he is use to calling home isnt there anymore. He is gonna move his stuff to his mothers house and sleep either there or here i guess is the plan. I dont want him to miss his son, and with all this change and time apart i know it will bother him. He is a good dad and i’m not going to get in the way of that. I’ve had an amazing week. I ordered him a RC Gas car he wanted it should be here on tuesday, cant wait to play together. I had requested tonight off, it being new years eve… but M ended up on the schedule so i said i would come in. I was happy to see we have the same days off this week, i hope it stays that way it would be nice.
*yawn* come on sweetie…call…you said you were coming back here before work… i understand if you got caught up with your son and your not coming back..but your work clothes are here..hmm….alright i’m gonna close lay down a bit before work.
Happy new years….
2007 is going to be wonderful