Employment Exasperation

So, I was lying in bed like a loser this morning, watching The Food Network and feeling like crap when I got a phone call.  Turns out, it was a lady from one of the numerous jobs that I had applied for that wanted to conduct an interview with me.  I perked up and grabbed a Post-It to write down all the information on.  As she talked, I scribbled away, not really comprehending any of it, just excited that in two months of job searching, I finally at least landed an interview.  I hung up with the lady and then it hit me immediately.  What was the job for?

For a while there, I was sending in resumes every which a way.  It didn’t matter where it was located, how much it paid, or what company it was for.  If it looked like I could do it, I applied.  What sucks is that most of the websites that listed jobs never explicitly stated the specifics of the job or the company that was hiring.  So, after I ended the conversation with this woman, I realized I had no idea what the position was, the salary or even where the job was located.  My chest ignited like fire and my cheeks splashed with red.  Oh, crap.  All I knew was the company name and where she wanted to do the interview.  I was so excited I never thought to ask her the specifics.  Well, I kind of did but then I didn’t want her thinking I was dumb for not realizing what the job was for.  I’m sure if I would have explained the situation she would have understood but I had already ended the call and I didn’t want to call her back and look even dumber.  But, if I didn’t ask, how could I prepare myself? 

Calling her back–
Pro: If I called and explained the situation, she could tell me what the job was for and I could properly set myself up for a great interview.
Con:  I didn’t want her thinking I was oblivious because I felt that would show that I wasn’t on top of things, wasn’t aware of what was going on, which would reflect badly on me and she wouldn’t hire me.  Plus, the longer I waited, the more suspicious I looked.  I mean, if I wasn’t sure of the job specifics, why didn’t I cal her back right away?  Calling right back might be understandable, but waiting the several hours that I waited seems kind of silly.

Faking my way through the interview–
Pro: Maybe I could wing it and she’d never realize I had no idea why I was there.  (Wow, does that not feel like some rejected sitcom script or what?)
Con: She’d catch me off guard with a question that I had no way of preparing myself for and she wouldn’t consider me.  Plus, I’d be embarrassed in person rather than over the phone if I had just called her.

So, I decided to call her back and just get it over with.  I mean, I didn’t want to waste my time or hers by applying for a position that I either didn’t want or wouldn’t be qualified for.  I ended up calling her back and she seemed to be fine with me being all dumb and just telling her that I had put in resumes all over Alabama for the past two months and I’ve kind of just lost track of my applications.  I didn’t detect any irritation in her voice and she assured me that it was fine.  She then explained the position to me and I still didn’t get it!  Once again, though, I just nodded my head and smiled and was like, “Okay, I just wanted to confirm the position! Thank you!” 

First of all, I have no idea what the position entails.  Secondly, I do not remember even applying for that at all!  Especially because the job is located in a town nearby that I haven’t even applied to in a month or two, or maybe never at all.  Plus, the job position doesn’t sound familiar or even sound like a job that I would apply for.  But, I mean the lady got my resume from somewhere and thinks I’m qualified for the job, at least on paper.  So, who knows, maybe this will work out.  Maybe this is just some cosmic random opportunity that has been granted to me.  I’m going to try not get excited.  Because I have no idea of what I’m gonna have to do, I might realize I can’t or don’t want to do it.  Or maybe the lady will think I’m a total loser during the interview and not hire me.  There are so many things that can (and with my luck, probably will) go wrong.  All I can do is go in with no expectations and just see it as a learning experience, a practice interview for when another job comes around.  At least I will have sharpened up my interview skills.  The interview is tomorrow at three and I’m queasy.  As much as I am trying not to be excited, I can’t help it.  What if this is what I’ve been waiting for?  What if I’m finally gonna be employed?  Or what if it turns out disastrous and I end up right where I started?  As pessimistic as I am on the outside, there’s this annoying sliver of hope that is buried in me like a knife and I hate it because even when I try not to be excited about something because I know I’ll get screwed in the end, I can’t help but to hope for the best.

I guess we’ll just have to see what happens.  I’m sure either way, it will be very interesting. 

*Small update- I got a call a couple of hours ago.  It was a recorded message from the same company that called me this morning saying they were interested in setting up an interview.  I was to press #1 to make an appointment and #9 to take my name off the list.  This is definitely not a good sign.  

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