Better

 Feeling a little better a couple of days later. I told my three closest girlfriends and my mom yesterday, and that helped a lot. My friend Molly told me that she would be excited enough for both of us, so that I didn’t have to feel badly about not feeling excited yet. It was sweet. =)

My mom understood my worries, but was obviously thrilled, which helped a lot. I saw her today and we talked through some logistics, which also helped. Ryan seems more comfortable with this pregnancy than the last one, which is helping too. It’s just all feeling more…right. I’m still not completely getting my hopes up, and probably won’t for awhile yet, but I’m not randomly bursting into tears either, so, improvement! I even brought myself to call my doctor today and make my first appointment, which I couldn’t even think about yesterday. When I go on Friday, I’m going to talk to the nurse about scheduling an early ultrasound, which my doctor told me we would be able to do if we got pregnant again. Hoping we will be able to have it before we go to the beach next month. We are going with a bunch of my cousins and their kids – I am so excited, and really want to be able to relax.

Have a strong feeling this baby is a girl. Always imagined another boy, but a girl would be lovely too. =)